“我努力想摆脱，但很难做到，真的很难。”一直强装坚强的朱启南说到这里突然哽咽了，泪水在眼睛里使劲打转。“对不起。”他跟记者摆了摆手，转身离去。就在转身时，眼泪已经挂满面庞，他一边快步走开，一边用双手擦着泪痕，留给记者一个瘦削而落寞的背影。

“I tried to get out of it，But it's hard to do，It really hard to。”Has been strong outfit strong zhu qinan here suddenly SOB，Tears in eyes is hard。“I'm sorry。”He told reporters put the motioning with his hand，Turned and walked away。In turn，The tears have hung face，As he quickly go away，Side use both hands wiping staining，For reporters a gaunt and a lonely figure。

　　没人知道他承担的压力有多大。“从昨天起我就跟自己斗争，就像被两个人控制着。”在男子10米气步枪比赛中，朱启南在资格赛中就遭到淘汰，495环的资格赛成绩也是他在国家队10多年来最差的一次。

No one know he assumes how much pressure。“From yesterday on I struggle with yourself，Like two personal control。”In the men's 10 m air rifle shooting game，Zhu qinan in qualifying were eliminated，The preliminary round of the 495 points in the national team performance is also his 10 years to one of the worst times。

美好的愿望：“一二一” Good wish：“The 121”

残酷的现实：阴影来袭 Cruel reality：Shadow strike

肩挑3项目标2金1银 One of the three goals to carry two gold 1 silver

　　早在射击队出征伦敦前，朱启南谈到自己的目标时诙谐地用了“一二一”来描述——他参加10米气步枪、步枪50米三种姿势、步枪卧射3个项目，“第一、第二和第一。”朱启南称最理想的结果是拿下2枚金牌1枚银牌，“我是多项王。”他自信地说道。

As early as in sharpshooters notched before war in London，Zhu qinan talking about their goals with witty“The 121”To describe-he took part in 10 m air rifle shooting、Rifle 50 meters three position、WoShe rifle three projects，“The first、The second and first。”Zhu qinan, the most ideal result is called won two gold MEDALS one silver，“I was much the。”He confidently said。

　　在过去的4年里，朱启南的人生发生了巨大的变化，射击事业进入了一个新阶段，生活上也从单身汉升级为未婚夫。去年情人节，朱启南和在浙江省艺术体操队做教练的未婚妻陈郑洁订婚，国家射击队总教练王义夫担任了证婚人。在订婚仪式上，朱启南的未婚妻在说到对未婚夫的祝愿时提出：“我希望他能在伦敦奥运会再创辉煌。”对于这个要求，朱启南满满地答应了，带着两个人的美好愿望，朱启南踏上了伦敦奥运会的征程。

In the past four years，Zhu qinan life has changed a lot，Shooting career entered a new phase，The life from a bachelor upgrade to the fiance。Valentine's day last year，Zhu qinan and in zhejiang province art do gymnastics team coach fiancee Chen zheng jie engaged，Coach wang yifu felt released after the total national sharpshooters notched as the witness。Engaged in the ceremony，Zhu qinan fiancee said to her fiance in to the proposed when wishes：“I hope he can in London Olympic Games create splendid future。”The requirements for，Zhu qinan chock-full promised，With two personal best wishes，Zhu qinan on the London's Olympic journey。

　　与庞伟、杜丽高调的恋情不同，朱启南的恋情非常低调。人们只知道他的女友叫陈郑洁，是艺术体操美女，至于有多美？鲜有人知道。朱启南在接受采访时曾说：“各人眼光不同，反正我觉得挺漂亮。 ”

And PangWei、DuLi high-profile relationships different，Zhu qinan relationships very low-key。People only know his girlfriend called Chen zheng jie，Is the artistic beauty，As for the beauty？Few people know。Zhu qinan said in an interview：“Eye each different，But I think it's beautiful。 ”

　　两人是在双方家长的牵线下相亲认识的，朱启南父母与陈郑洁父母是老交情了，当双方获悉各自的孩子都没有对象时便极力撮合，两个孩子也顺利交往并确定关系。长年的两地生活让两人只能通过电话一诉衷肠，来到伦敦后，朱启南每天都要和未婚妻煲电话粥。首战失利后，相信他会得到未婚妻的安慰。而比他幸运的是，美国选手埃蒙斯虽然同样失利，但同为射击运动员的妻子卡特琳娜能在现场安慰丈夫。

Two people on both sides of the parents is related to know under，Zhu qinan parents and Chen zheng jie parents ww11，When the two sides that their children are no object gave set，Two children and smooth communication and determined the relationship。Two years of life to let two people can only through the phone a lawsuit words of my own，Came to London after，Zhu qinan every day and fiancee to talk on the phone。Opening defeat，Believe that he will get his fiancee of comfort。And fortunately than he，The American players AiMengSi although also defeat，But for shooting athletes with the wife Catherine in the scene to comfort her husband。

残酷的现实：阴影来袭 Cruel reality：Shadow strike

思维就像被两个人控制 Thinking like two personal control

　　未婚妻的嘱托加上北京奥运会的遗憾，让朱启南特别想拿到男子10米气步枪这枚金牌，“来了伦敦后这种欲望更为强烈。”他说，“实在太渴望金牌，从2008年就一直想重圆这个梦。我的训练等各方面情况都很好，不是没有这个实力和能力，但冲金的想法让自己无法放开。我也知道这样的心态会导致失败，最终还是发生了，其实从赛前一天就已经注定了这个结果。”

The Beijing Olympic Games and fiancee entrust the regret，Let zhu qinan special want to get men's 10 m air rifle shooting the gold medal，“To the London after this desire more strongly。”He said，“Really too eager for the gold medal，From 2008 years has been that ends it to this dream。My training and so on various aspects are very good，Is not without the strength and ability，But blunt gold ideas to himself unable to let go。I also know that this state of mind can cause failure，Finally happened，But from a day before the game is already determined the results。”

　　“那种心魔很难战胜，真的很难。”他痛苦地回忆这两天的心理状态，“比赛中我突然感觉到2008年北京奥运会的阴影回来了，感觉特别可怕。”朱启南喃喃地说完“很难做到，真的很难”后突然哽咽了，眼泪随即流了出来。

“That's hard to win over hearts，It really hard to。”His pain to remember the two days of the psychological condition，“The match I suddenly felt the shadows of the 2008 Beijing Olympic Games back，Feel particularly frightening。”Zhu qinan mumblingly say that finish“Difficult to do，It really hard to”After choking suddenly，Tears flow out immediately。

　　“比赛中打得太紧了。我很想放开，但感觉就像两个人在控制自己的思维，一方面不让自己去想，一方面自己却又往牛角尖里钻。”朱启南痛苦地说，“不是别的问题，我的技术没有问题，就是自己的这里有问题。”他指指自己的头。

“Playing it too tight。I very want to release，But feel like two people in the control of your thinking，On the one hand and not let myself to think，On the one hand and to have focused inside drill。”Zhu qinan painfully said，“Not any other questions，I have no problem of technology，Is their here has a problem。”He pointed at his head。

　　冷静下来后，朱启南说，结果自己认可，也清楚失败的症结在哪里，“毕竟并不是没有经历过，比赛中自己也尽了全力想去摆脱那种对金牌的渴望。”朱启南说，“败在自己的思想下，我想这也是一个好的征兆，毕竟能够从失利体会出一些东西来，为后面的两项做准备。”他强调，这项比赛已经结束了，“我会好好总结，尽可能早地摆脱思想的束缚，最想要的金牌得不到就算了，试着重新去享受比赛带来的快乐吧。”(白志标)

Calm down after，Zhu qinan said，Results by his，Also know the cause of the failure in where，“After all, and not without the experience，Game oneself also efforts want to go to get through the gold medal of desire。”Zhu qinan said，“Defeated by their thoughts，I think this is a good sign，After all to experience from defeat something，For the two to make the preparation。”He stressed that，The game is over，“I'll summarize，As early as possible and get away from the bondage of thought，Want to get even if the gold medal，Try to enjoy the game of the joy of it。”(BaiZhiBiao)