熊顿：与“肿瘤君”斗争的日子 Bear's:and"Tumor jun"Struggle day

　　她几乎习惯了化疗后的呕吐，以及病情发作时“像有人伸手捏着心脏的痛”；剃光头发后大哭的她，现在已能接受朋友摸一摸的恶搞。

She almost accustomed to chemotherapy after the vomiting,And illness onset"Like someone stretched out his hand and grabbed the heart pain";A close shave after she burst into tears,Can now accept friends touch kuso.

　　这个神经大条的漫画家也有烦恼，体重的增加最让她头疼，因为以前的漂亮衣服不能穿了。只是这种怨念并不会持续多久，“算了，生病期间允许自己胖个五六斤吧。”

The nerve a cartoonist also have trouble,Weight gain the most let her have a headache,Because of previous beautiful clothes worn-out.Just this quarrels with his reading will not last long,"Forget it,During his illness, allow yourself a fat WuLiuJin it."

　　对于癌症，熊顿取了一个有点亲切的称呼——肿瘤君。她即将出版的最新漫画集，也与这位肿瘤君有关，书名符合她自认为彪悍的性格，叫《滚蛋吧！肿瘤君》。

For cancer,Bear meal took a bit of a friendly call - tumor gentleman.She was about to issue of the latest ManHuaJi,Also with the tumor on jun,Title accord with she think tough character,call[Fuck off!!Tumor jun].

　　

肿瘤君来了 Tumor person came to the

　　肿瘤君来得毫无征兆。

Tumor gentleman come without warning.

　　去年8月，熊顿早晨起床去卫生间时突然跌倒，四肢抽搐，口吐白沫。

Last August,Bear the morning meal to go to toilet when suddenly fall,Limb tic,Mouth foam.

　　这个彪悍的女子之前很少为健康操心，即使经常过着黑白颠倒、三餐不定的生活，仰仗着“壮汉型的体格”，她已有七八年没去过医院。

The tough woman rarely before for health worry about,Even if often have a black and white upside down/Meals indefinite life,Depended on"Strong man type physique",She has 78 haven't been to the hospital.

　　室友艾米在医院急得团团转，她却躲在一边犯花痴，眼前的急诊室梁医生让她“眼前一亮”，有一种“戴着口罩都遮不住的英俊”。

Roommate Amy in the hospital in hurry,She was hiding in the side spoony,Present emergency room beam the doctor asked her"Shine at the moment",There is a"Wearing a mask can't hide all handsome".

　　检查结果不乐观，熊顿患上了非霍奇金淋巴瘤，即淋巴癌。医生委婉宣布结果不妙，此时，她正把玩手机，沉醉在切水果的游戏里，“生病了嘛，没办法，命里注定，配合医生治疗就得了。”癌症在她眼里好像只是一场普通的感冒。

Inspection results are not optimistic,Bear had meal non-hodgkin's lymphoma,Namely non-hodgkin's lymphoma.The doctor tactful announce results a rat,At this time,She is playing with mobile phone,Intoxicated in the cut fruit in the game,"Sick!,Can't,Was destined to,With the treatment have to."Cancer in her eyes as if is only a common cold.

　　人不能被病吓死，索性，熊顿把害怕的情绪直接省略了。她颇有声势地告诉闺蜜，要“变成抗癌斗士漫画家”，“要是这样我都好了，以后就牛了。”艾米被这个泪点超低的室友镇住了，她甚至纳闷，看《导盲犬小Q》哭晕过去的熊顿，“内心竟然如此强大”。

People cannot be disease frighten to death,simply,The bear's frightened of the direct omitted.She quite have the momentum to tell, honey,to"Become cancer fighters cartoonist","If so I were made well,After the ox."Amy was the tears with a low roommate,She even wonder,see[Guide dog small Q]Cry passed bear meal,"The heart was so strong".

　　当然，她也有沮丧的时候。天天对着医院的灰白色天花板，她十分怀念以前五光十色的日子，遗憾“K歌必定刷夜，聚餐必喝大酒”不再出现。化疗后的反应更令她害怕，一想到变胖不能穿漂亮衣服、不能化妆打扮，她会觉得自己“很挫”。

Of course,She also have depressed.Everyday to hospital gray ceiling,She was very miss before the day of colorful,Sorry to"K song must brush night,Dinner will drink large wine"No longer appear.The reaction of chemotherapy after more to her fear,The thought of fat can't wear beautiful clothes/Can't make up,She would feel"Very sharply".

　　入耳就是打针、吃药、体温、白细胞增减，住院对好动的熊顿来说无疑是坐牢。为了哄自己开心，她会化个妆让自己美一下，然后穿上漂亮的裙子，偷偷溜到宾馆看电视吹空调。好友要来看望，她得知消息后早早梳洗打扮好，笑着索要一句“漂亮”的赞美，惹得对方忍不住感慨：“喔噻，你的心理素质实在太好了！”

Pleasant to hear is an injection/Take medicine/temperature/Leucocyte increase or decrease,Hospital to active bear for meal is undoubtedly in jail.In order to coax myself happy,She will turn a makeup to a beauty,Then put on beautiful dress,Sneaking into the hotel to watch TV blow air conditioning.Good friends will come to visit,She learned that news early dress well,Ask for a smile"beautiful"praise,Make the other party can't help feeling:"Oh beauty,Your psychological quality was good!"

　　

总得给自己找乐子 Must give yourself for fun

　　化疗到第六期的时候，熊顿嘱咐艾米带来了笔和速写簿，她要继续画漫画，患病期间的经历一一变成了笔尖的素材。

Chemotherapy to the sixth period of time,Bear's charged Amy brought the pen and sketch book,She wants to continue to cartoons,During the illness experience them into a pen material.

　　漫画里，熊顿长着熊耳朵和熊尾巴，是个标准的“熊姑娘”。事实是，她原名很温婉，叫项瑶，自称熊顿是因为喜爱熊和牛顿。

In the cartoon,The bear's bear long ears and bear tail,Is a standard"Bear girl".The fact is,Her name is wen wan,That item yao,Claims to bear meal because love bear and Newton.

　　她将体内比心脏还大的肿瘤命名为“肿瘤君”，漫画集的名字符合她彪悍的性格，叫《滚蛋吧！肿瘤君》。

She will be the body is greater than the heart of tumor named"Tumor jun",ManHuaJi name corresponds with her tough character,call[Fuck off!!Tumor jun].

　　在自己描绘的世界里，熊顿没有江南姑娘的秀气，她花痴地单恋着梁医生，有时也会使坏地调戏一下小护士，甚至，她还会在发牢骚的时候，气愤地蹦出几句京骂。

Picture yourself in the world,Bear's no jiangnan girl's delicate,She anthomaniac land unrequited love with beam doctor,Sometimes to molest or a little nurse,even,She will be in the complaining,Angrily jumped out a few words JingMa.

　　她把这些看上去自毁形象的漫画发到网上，本想分享一下患病期间的经历体会，希望帮助到其他的癌症患者，哪料到，点击量很快到了200多万。《滚蛋吧！肿瘤君》被网友定义为“治愈系”，爱恶搞的熊顿有了个饱含正能量的封号——励志姐，一些粉丝干脆以“熊崽子”自居。

She put these look self-destruction image of the cartoons to online,This want to share the experience during the illness experience,Want to help to other cancer patients,Which expect,Click on the quantity soon to more than 200.[Fuck off!!Tumor jun]Is defined as the net friend"Cure system",Love kuso bear has a meal full of positive energy's titles - inspirational elder sister,Some fans simply to"cubs"Pose as.

　　彼时，化疗后的反应正折磨着熊顿，她一吃东西就吐。肩膀和背部时常被剧痛侵袭，母亲陪床的第一夜，她第一次体会到了死去活来的痛，“就像是有人把手伸进胸口使劲捏我的心脏”。治疗期间头发掉得厉害，她只能剃成光头，“反正还会长，剃了也能戴假发”。虽然早有心理准备，并幻想着没准头发长出来时，还能变成秀兰邓波儿那样的卷发，但当好友老正拿着DV记录这段故事的时候，她还是忍不住哭了。

At the,The reaction of chemotherapy after gnawed the bear meal,She eat then spit.Shoulder and back pain is often hit,Mother accompany a bed of the first night,The first time she realized the pain die again and again,"Like someone dived his hand into my chest tried to pinch my heart".During the treatment of hair off badly,She can only shave into bald,"Anyway, also President of,Shaved can also wear a wig".Although early have mental preparation,And maybe a fantasy hair long came out,Also can become DengBoEr Shirley temple that curl,But when friends old was holding DV recording this period of story,She still couldn't help crying.

　　可转念一想，既然人生就是这样了，“总得给自己找乐子”。

Can be thought,Since life is so,"Must give yourself for fun".

　　化疗之后得了静脉炎，她疼得一宿一宿睡不着觉，用大剂量的吗啡也不是很有效果。现在熊顿的手上还有很大的一块伤，跟烧伤一样。“疼的时候就光疼了”，她懒得去想怎么这么倒霉之类的事情，因为“疼也是正常的过程”。她还学会了自我催眠，睡不着的时候就反复念叨“睡嘛睡嘛”。

After chemotherapy had phlebitis,Pain her night sleep a night,With a large dose of morphine also not to have the effect very much.Now bear's hand and a lot of wounds,As with burn."When pain is light hurts",She too lazy to think how so unlucky things like that,because"Pain is a normal process".She also learned self-hypnosis,Can not sleep when he repeatedly niandao"Sleep sleep!!".

　　最难受的是咳嗽，她一躺下就忍不住咳嗽，但似乎她的适应能力十分厉害，“咳嗽咳嗽也习惯了”。

The worst is cough,She lay down can not but cough,But it seems she's adaptation ability very much,"Cough cough also accustomed to".

　　住院的半年多时间里，熊顿身边的病友频繁更换，一些年长的病友会跟熊顿妈妈佩服地说：“你的女儿很开朗嘛。”碰到小朋友，熊顿还会陪着他们一起玩，“打僵尸，切水果，一起看看好玩儿的动画片。”这个30岁的病人有趣得让艾米费解，“可能漫画家的思维就是这样吧。”

The hospital in more than half a year,Bear's side wardmate frequent change,Some older patients with will bear's mom admire to say:"Your daughter is very cheerful!."Met children,Bear meal will accompany them to play together,"Playing vampire,Cut fruit,Look at the animation with fun."The 30 patients interesting let Amy puzzlement,"May cartoonist thinking is so."

　　熊顿一听乐了，“我真不是强颜欢笑，我是真的觉得日子每天都该开心地过呢！”语气十分卖萌，就跟她常说的那样：“生活再不济，总还是美好的。”

Bear's a listen to the music,"I'm really not centuries.she smiles,I really think that day every day happy? The have!"Mood very sell sprout,Just like she used to say that:"Life is nothing more,Total or good."

　　

“我要更加强悍才行” "I would like to do more tough to just go"

　　朋友圈里以无厘头著称的熊顿，漫画里却不时流露温情。

Circle of friends in for) bear meal,But in the cartoon show warmth from time to time.

　　病痛难耐的时候，这个平时只对家里报喜不报忧的北漂女，睡觉时必须握住母亲温暖粗糙的手，“就像小时候摸着妈妈的嘴唇入睡一样安心”。看着父母为治病的钱发愁，她“把自己剁吧剁吧卖了的心”都有。

When pain intolerable,This usually only bad news for home north drift female,Sleep must hold mother warm rough hands,"Just like when I was a child touched my mother's lips like to sleep at ease".Look at my parents for cure money worry,she"The chop chop it's sold heart"have.

　　七夕这天，邻床病友的老公特地从西安飞来过节，消毒水味弥漫的病房，多了点浪漫的味道。熊顿心生羡慕，掏出手机，轻按几下，向9万多粉丝感慨：“得病虽然不幸，但在病中被爱却比中大奖还幸运。”

Seventh day,Adjacent bed wardmate husband fly came from the xian feast,Disinfectants smell of the ward,Too much romantic flavor.Bear's born heart envy,Take out a cellular phone,Light according to a,More than 90000 fans to sigh with emotion:"Sick although unfortunately,But in the disease by love is better than the lottery is lucky."

　　这种感性的文字在她的微博里并不常见，里面更多的是恶搞与卖萌，她熟谙网络用语，把“知道”说成“鸡到”，“觉着”变成“嚼着”，医院的“主任”则叫“主印”。朋友难得一本正经鼓励一回，却被她嘲笑得不知所措。前两天，好友王哥发来短信：“发微博和画漫画就是你向病魔抗争的武器，千万不要松懈。那么多人都在关注你关心你呢！不要被击倒！”熊顿看完一时难以自持，“噗嗤，我觉得搞笑的人忽然严肃起来更搞笑啊！”

This kind of perceptual words in her small bo is not common in,It is more of a kuso and sell sprout,She is familiar with the network language,the"know"Said to"Chicken to","feel"into"Chew the",hospital"director"Is called"The main printing".Friends seldom solemnity encourage once,Was she laughed at all to pieces.Two days before,Good friends WangGe sent SMS:"FaWei bo and cartoons to whom you fight disease weapons,Don't slack.So many people are focusing on you care about you!Don't be down!"Bear watching a meal to self sustaining,"titter,I feel funny man was serious up more hilarious!"

　　粉丝读到她对梁医生的花痴，会给她打气，为她讲述那些重病赶不走的爱情故事，熊顿读完心生向往，“希望我化疗完了也找到个好老公”，她笑称没啥要求，“高富帅就可以了。”

Read to her fans to beam the doctor's anthomaniac,Would give her up,For she tells the intensive won't go away love story,Bear's heart to read born,"Hope I finished chemotherapy and found a good husband",She smile says nothing requirements,"GaoFu handsome is ok."

　　前两天，老正告诉熊顿，已经给她物色了一个老公，明年回国，“等你治好病、减完肥，他就回来了”。“时机是如此的正好，命中是那么的注定！”熊顿在微博里害起了相思，她睡不着了，这个“连见都没见过不知长毛样的老公”让她失眠，“我觉得我已经爱上他了！要等我呦！”

Two days before,The old are telling bear meal,Have given her looking for a husband,Next to,"You cure disease/Reduced the fat,He will be back"."Time is so right,Hit is so doomed!"Bear meal in micro bo against up the acacia,She can't sleep the,this"Even see have never seen don't know long galley proof husband"Let her insomnia,"I think I've been in love with him!Will you wait for me!"

　　8月对熊顿而言，有很多期待。她的漫画集《滚蛋吧！肿瘤君》马上就要出版了。月初，她在微博上“@”了曾在北京肿瘤医院治过病的薛蛮子，还有她的偶像陈坤、王菲、姚晨，请求他们写序。薛蛮子由此59年来第一次看漫画，“一个三十不到的小女子，面对肿瘤是如此乐观，让我老汉儿自叹弗如。”姚晨也在微博里欣然应允，熊顿感谢之余不忘对偶像调侃一番，学着《武林外传》郭芙蓉的口气说：“大姚，感谢之情如排！山！倒！海！”

August to bear for meal,There are a lot of looking forward to.Her ManHuaJi[Fuck off!!Tumor jun]Will be published.early,Her blog in micro"@"He had been in Beijing cancer hospital cure a disease of xue barbarian,And her idol chitinolytic/Faye wong/YaoChen,Ask them to write sequence.Xue barbarian thus 59 years first read comic,"A less than 30 small woman,In the face of the tumor is so optimistic,Let me ZiTanFuRu old man son."YaoChen also in micro bo in readily answered,Bear's more than thanks does not forget to ridicule a idol,Learn to[Wulin gaiden]The tone of guo lotus said:"yao,Thanks such as exhaust!mountain!fall!The sea!"

　　坏消息是，此前得到控制的肿瘤君，在5月份重新驾到。复查的诊断结果仍然为纵膈弥漫大B细胞淋巴瘤，属于复发难治病例。因为肿瘤的位置不好，放疗不能包括所有肿块，需要放、化疗同时进行。放疗后引发食道炎，她现在没法咽下食物，即使是吃流食也够疼的。

The bad news is,After get control of tumor gentleman,In may on baby again.Review the diagnosis results are still for mediastinum diffuse large B cell lymphoma,Belong to NanZhiBing cases recurrence.Because of the tumor in a bad position,Radiation can't include all mass,Need to put/Chemotherapy simultaneously.After radiation caused esophagitis,Now she can't swallow food,Even eat liquid also enough pain.

　　粉丝们的鼓励里，最常见的就是“滚蛋吧！肿瘤君”，熊顿也在为自己打气，“你要自己更加强悍才行啊！”

The fans in the encouragement,The most common is"Fuck off!!Tumor jun",Bear meal and for yourself in the pump,"You want to more tough to just go ah!"

　　她的确够强悍的，前两天去护士站，护士盯着她光滑的头端详良久，“最后还是忍不住摸了一下我的光头”。临了，护士还不忘感慨一句：“真的一点毛茬子也没有，好光滑。”熊顿对此已经习惯，甚至有点自得地说：“天津饭(日本漫画《龙珠》人物)看到我都求着收我做徒弟，非要传我太阳拳好不好。”(记者 吉祥)

She really tough enough,The first two days to nurse station,The nurse stare at her smooth head details for a long time,"Could not bear finally touched my head".finally,The nurse is not forget a feeling:"Really a little hair chi son also have no,Good smooth."Bear this meal is used,Even a little complacent to say:"tien(Japanese cartoon[Dragon ball]characters)See I have asked that I do the disciple,Don't want to pass my sun boxing is good."(Reporter auspicious)