如果不需要舍弃，汤玲玲想要的东西有很多：想要苹果手机，想要在厦门买房子给自己一个家，想要跟心爱的人结婚然后生很多孩子……这个热爱生活的姑娘想要一切普通人都在追求的安稳、平静而幸福的生活。

If you don't need to give up,ShangLingLing want many things:Want to iphone,Want to buy a house in xiamen to own a home,Want to do with the person I love marriage and have many children...The love life of the girl want to all ordinary people are in the pursuit of the safe/Calm and happy life.

　　现实是，她舍弃了。现在，她所拥有的财富，仅仅是一贫如洗的“身家”、许多山区小学图书室、几十个粘着她的孩子和一份快乐。为了这些财富，这个出生在苏北的女孩，舍弃了在厦门的高薪工作，舍弃了原来想要的生活，而选择远赴广西玉林支教，并连续走访当地山村小学，筹资为他们建立图书室。

Reality is,She abandoned.now,She have wealth,Is only the poor"fads"/Many mountain primary school library/Dozens of sticking her child, and a happy.For these wealth,The girl was born in jiangsu province,Abandoned in xiamen high salary job,Abandon the original want to life,And choose far in yulin city of guangxi province to lend a hand,And continuous visit local mountain village primary school,Financing for them to build library.

　　但很快，她又不得不舍弃现在的生活，再次回到曾经的生活轨道上。家庭和健康，成了她不得不再次舍弃的重要理由。

But soon,She had to give up life now,Once again return to the life of the orbit.Family and health,She had to give up again became an important reason.

　　相比前一次舍弃，这一次，汤玲玲更为不舍。

Compared with the first part with,This time,ShangLingLing more give up.

　　9月13日傍晚，在汤玲玲支教的广西玉林市大楼小学，几名小女孩偷偷问记者：“你能不能帮我们劝汤老师留下来呀？我们还想让她教。”在孩子们散尽后，面对记者的复述，在大雨将至前的凉风中，汤玲玲望着残旧不堪的校舍，一下子陷入沉静。长长地，她叹了一口气。

On September 13 evening,ShangLingLing assistance in yulin city of guangxi primary school building,A few little girl secretly asked the reporters:"Can you help us advised non-existent stay ah?We also want to let she taught."In the children after all over,Facing journalists' retelling,In the rain will come in the cool of the former,ShangLingLing looking true unbearable schoolhouse,Suddenly into silence.long,She sighed.

　　这个月，走访完剩余30几所小学之后，汤玲玲将回到厦门，继续广告行业的工作。那时，她筹资捐建的山区小学图书室总数将超过100家。

This month,Visit the residual 30 a few primary school later,ShangLingLing will return to xiamen,To continue the work of advertising industry.then,She donated financing mountain primary school library will have a total of more than 100.

　　“我没想到，这么快就到了人生的这个阶段了家庭的责任、职业的发展、自己的身体、感情上的难堪。我必须开始准备了。”对于亲人之间的离别、病老，汤玲玲一直看得很开，但这次，她知道，自己对父母尽责的时候彻彻底底地到了。

"I didn't expect,So quick to this stage of the life of family responsibility/Professional development/His body/Emotional embarrassment.I must be going."For relatives leave/Disease old,ShangLingLing have been watching very open,But this time,She knew,His parents to conscientious time to totally.

　　本想着过年前带母亲到厦门治疗腰椎间盘突出的她，不久前才知道，父亲的糖尿病已经到了那么危险的地步：去年底，父亲右眼已经看不见，现在，左眼也在恶化；各种并发症的前期症状已经出现，即使治疗也难以避免。

This thinking with mother before Chinese New Year to xiamen treatment of lumbar intervertebral disc herniation of she,Not long ago just know,Father's diabetes has arrived so dangerous point:end,Father has the right to see,now,Left eye is deteriorating;All kinds of complications of the early symptoms of has appeared,Even if treatment is difficult to avoid.

　　面对现实，奔波于山村小学图书室之间的汤玲玲明白，自己无法用现在的状态去尽做女儿的责任。

Face the reality,In the village primary school between the library ShangLingLing understand,You can't use now of the state to do her daughter's responsibility.

　　也许她可以像她帮助别人时一样，寻求他人的资助来帮父母渡过难关，但一向坚强的她选择自己承担就像她独立承担在广西玉林支教中遇到的种种磨难。

Maybe she can be like her as to help others,Seek funding to help parents tide over the difficulties,But always strong she chooses to commit yourself to just like her independently bear in yulin city of guangxi province encountered in education of hardships.

　　由于连续在乡野奔波，在剧烈咳嗽了两个月之后，今年4月25日晚上，汤玲玲头痛欲裂，这是她支教以来承受的无数身体折磨中最可怕的一次。第二天，她在微博上写道：“痛不欲生。晚上吃了芬必得，静坐整晚，依旧痛。想哭，没力气哭。躺下睡着，几次痛得醒来。去城里的医院要1h（一小时，记者注），半夜也找不到人送我。当时心里好怕，爷爷就是睡梦中血管破掉去世的好怕，怕自己会死掉，我不怕死，只是还有太多事没做完。今天继续痛，痛得眼珠子都疼。”

Due to the continuous in the countryside,In the intense coughing for two months later,April 25, in the evening,ShangLingLing a splitting headache,This is her since education under the worst suffering countless body in a.The next day,She in micro blog wrote:"Be overwhelmed with sorrow.Eat in the evening the Finn will be,Sit all night,Still pain.Want to cry,I have no energy to cry.Lie down and sleep,Several times the pain is to wake up.Go to the city hospital to 1 h(An hour,Reporter note),Midnight also can not find people send me.At that time the heart good be afraid,Grandpa is asleep vascular broken good afraid of death,Afraid of them will die on their own,I don't afraid of death,But there are too many things didn't finish.Today continue to pain,The pain is eyeball are painful."

　　这是汤玲玲第一次在执著的助学中，萌生了一丝退意。在她忍受疼痛的那天晚上，厦门一家公司老板打电话来“叫我回去，公司扩大规模，部门总监的位子是我的”。

This is the first time in ShangLingLing clinging in student,A TuiYi initiation.In her endure the pain of that night,Xiamen a company boss call"Call me back,The company is expanding the scale,Department director seat is my".

　　之后，汤玲玲在微博上记下：“当时，我真的动摇了。在这里，我是众矢之的，要保持耐性要忍辱负重，没有钱，很辛苦，不断地生病，继续做下去，没有尽头；回去，大碗喝酒大块吃肉，虽然辛苦，谁看我不顺眼可以叫他滚，做着做着就风生水起，成为装逼大众的艳羡对象……而今我，孤独，无助，苦不堪言，到底意难平。”

after,ShangLingLing in micro bo down:"At that time,I really shaken.here,I am target of public criticism,To keep patience to humiliation,No money,Very hard,Constantly sick,Continue to do it,No end;back,Large bowl of drinking large meat,Although the hard,Who see me not pleasing to the eye can call he roll,Doing doing is flawed,Become a pack to force public envy object...Now I,lonely,helpless,Pain in the neck,Exactly meaning difficult flat."

　　但是，疼痛、独自哭泣过后，汤玲玲仍然选择坚持。有一天，她给自己算了一笔账，3年81个图书室，为超过两万个孩子买了10多万本书，图书总价超过200万元，今年国庆以后，为山村小学成立的图书室超过100个。这个时候，她就觉得，再苦再累也都值了。

but,pain/Weep alone after,ShangLingLing still prefer to insist.One day,Her for his calculate a bill,3 years 81 library,For more than twenty thousand children bought more than books,The total value of more than 2 million yuan,National Day this year after,For the mountain village primary school library was established more than 100.This time,She felt,Again painstakingly again tired are worth it.

　　“一直给图书匮乏的山村孩子们买书，唯一的相信，是相信‘知书’才能‘达理’，相信知识能够为孩子们的带来生活的改变，哪怕只有一点点。”可当人们说她“无私奉献”，她却总是微笑摆手。

"Has been to the lack of the village children to buy books,The only believe,Is to believe that‘Knows the book to’can‘Of bedding’,Believe that knowledge can bring for the children's life changes,Even if only a little."But when people say she"Selfless dedication",She was always smiling motioning with his hand.

　　“经历许多事，取得一点点成绩，最深刻的感受，就是想要谢谢每个人。谢谢误解我羞辱我的人，他们让我成长；谢谢支持我帮助我关心我的人，他们让我坚强。谢谢孩子们，让我懂得爱的真谛。谢谢我自己的信仰，一次一次在困难之中给我力量。”她说。

"Experience many things,Make a small achievement,The most profound feelings,Is want to thank everyone.Thank you misunderstand me reproach me,They let me grow;Thank you support me help I care about me,They make me strong.Thank you for the children,Let me know the true meaning of love.Thank you my own belief,Once in the difficulty to give me strength."She said.

　　4月那次头疼之后，汤玲玲还出现过几次严重的头疼。9月13日，要去走访一所离城区最远、需要走45公里山路的小学时，她也被病痛折磨着。当天早上6点多，她是被疼醒的，吃几片阿司匹林之后，她还是背起行囊上路。

Four months after the headache,ShangLingLing also appeared a few times serious headache.On September 13,Want to go to visit a farthest from the city/Need to go 45 kilometers of road elementary school,She was tortured with pain.The six o 'clock in the morning,She was painful waking,Eat a few aspirin later,She still take the package hit the road.

　　在她的心目中，深深钦佩的还是那些基层教育工作者。她说：“我们学校前校长，09年肝癌晚期去世，47岁。一直到他在讲台上倒下，送医，完全宣告不治，老师们才知他病入膏肓。去他家里拿资料才看到，01年他已染疾，一直苦苦撑着。膝下两子在读书，妻子打零工。我无法想象，他如何度过一个个难捱的黑夜，坚守着清贫的信仰？”

In her mind,Deeply admire or those basic education workers.She said:"Our school headmaster before,09 years late liver cancer death,47.Until he is on the platform giving fell down,hospital,Completely pronounced dead,The teachers didn't know he beyond recovery.Go to his home take material to see,In, he has impediment,Who have been supporting.Two knees son in reading,His wife's doing odd jobs to turn an.I can't imagine,How does he spend a difficult night,Stick to the poor beliefs?"

　　为了将公益更长久地坚持下去，汤玲玲不敢“伟大地死去”。她明白自己的身体确实到了不能再这么硬撑下去的地步，加之心中对父母的愧疚，“暂时撤退吧”。

In order to public welfare longer to keep going,ShangLingLing dare not"Great to die".She understand your body really to can't go down so far,And in the heart of the guilty for parents,"Temporary retreat!".

　　这不是结束，而是一个新的开始。讲起公益助学中，现实的困境和未来的规划，她清醒又充满向往：“公益是一生要走的路。我明白，要平台、要团队、要正规起来，才能够给更多的孩子带来帮助。这是一条漫长迂回的路。”

This is not the end,It is a new beginning.Speak up in public education,Realistic dilemma and future planning,Her awake and full of yearning:"Public welfare is the life is the way to go.I understand,To platform/To the team/To normal up,To be able to bring help more children.This is a long sinuous road."

　　不得不告别，她却并不知道该怎么跟孩子们交待。这一个由31名孩子组成的班级，给汤玲玲带来了无数欢乐，在她的电脑里，有每一个孩子的照片。看着每一张照片，她都能讲出一串这个孩子身上发生过的有趣的事情。

Had to say goodbye to,She did not know how to explain to the children.This one by 31 children composition class,To ShangLingLing brought innumerable happiness,In her computer,Have each child's photo.Look at every photo,She can speak out a string of the children of the interesting things happened.

　　从一开始的陌生，到后来的粘着，孩子们对汤玲玲的情感，是她一年来最为具体而得意的收获。她后来决定向孩子撒一个善意的谎言：“老师要回到厦门结婚啦。”她觉得，这种美好的事情，可能更能让孩子们接受她将离开的事实。为了让孩子们相信，她还煞费苦心地从手机里找出一张朋友的照片，告诉孩子们：“我就是要跟他结婚啊。”

From the beginning of the stranger,To later adhesive,The children to ShangLingLing emotions,Is she a years the most concrete and satisfied results.She decided to children and to a white lie:"The teacher will go back to xiamen married."She felt,This kind of good things,May be more can let the children accept the fact that she will leave.In order to let the children believe,She also went to great pains to phone to find out from a friend's photo,Tell the children:"I just want to marry him ah."

　　而事实上，虽然家里一直在催这个29岁的女孩找对象，但她一直觉得，这并不是当务之急，“我真的不急，毕竟跟我结婚，只会拖累别人。”

In fact,Although home has been urged the 29 year old girl find object,But she always felt,This is not urgent,"I really don't hurry,After all with me get married,Will only drag others."

　　汤玲玲并不知道，当自己真正离开这些孩子之后，他们会是怎样的具体反应。上学期，有一个小女孩在《二十年后再相会》的作文里写道：“二十年后，我想我们班同学一起去厦门找老师，探望她一下，她教了我们那么多知识，我们一定要报答她。找到她以后，我们首先拿些苹果给她吃，然后对她说，汤老师谢谢你！我们都买了苹果，营养品，谢谢你汤老师！”

ShangLingLing did not know,When you really leave after these children,They will be what kind of specific reaction.Last term,There is a little girl in[Twenty years later again next]The composition wrote:"Twenty years later,I think our classmates go to xiamen for the teacher,Visit her once in a while,She taught us so much knowledge,We must thanked her.Find her later,We first take some apples for her to eat,Then said to her,Non-existent thank you!We bought an apple,nourishment,Thank you for non-existent!"

　　再次翻出这篇作文，汤玲玲难抑开心，但想了想，她轻轻说：“其实，我希望人人都可以忘记我。因为记得一个人，尤其是对自己好的人，是很辛苦的事情。孩子们好好地长大，做个好人，就行了。”对于自己，她唯一的想法便是，“不求有功，但求无过。”（记者 王怡波）

Once again turn inside out the composition,ShangLingLing difficult or happy,But wanted to think,She said gently:"In fact,I hope everyone can forget me.Because remember a person,Especially for their good people,Is very hard things.The children grew up well,Do a good,it."For his,She is the only idea,"BuQiuYouGong,But beg without transgression."(Reporter WangYiBo)