郭衡 GuoHeng 事发地麻省理工斯隆管理学院校园。 The land Mit Sloan school campus. 这是光彩照人的郭衡，是汪笑熟悉的朋友。 This is GuoHeng radiant,Is wang smile familiar friends.

　　昨天新华网转发美国媒体的一则消息给人们平添了一份感伤：麻省理工学院（MIT）斯隆管理学院的28岁的中国女留学生郭衡（化名）于当地时间10月26日被发现丧生马萨诸塞州剑桥市的校外公寓内，目前死因不明，但警方表示不排除自杀可能。

The American media yesterday xinhuanet forward a message to people adds a sentimental:The Massachusetts institute of technology(Mit)Sloan school of management of 28 years old Chinese female students GuoHeng(alias)Local time on October 26, was found dead in Cambridge, Massachusetts, outside of the apartment,At present no explainable cause of death,But police say does not exclude may commit suicide.

　　消息传来，令人扼腕。特别是境外媒体刊发了一张郭衡的婚纱照，照片上的她，年轻秀美，温文尔雅。人在深圳的汪笑（化名）更是难以接受这个冰冷的事实，因为她和郭衡在深圳实验学校高中部一起度过三年的校园时光。

news,Bid for a.Especially the overseas media GuoHeng carrying a love,Photos on her,Beautiful young,Gentle and cultivated.People in shenzhen wong smile(alias)More difficult to accept the cold facts,Because she and GuoHeng in shenzhen experimental school been spend three years time at school.

　　

朋友：她是个乐天派 friends:She is a happy camper

　　昨天黄昏时分，汪笑在自己的工作间接受了记者的独家采访。这对她来说，无疑是一个充满矛盾而又痛苦的过程。在采访中，她的泪水几次潸然落下。

Yesterday evening,Wang laughed in his workshop accepted an exclusive interview with reporters.This for her,No doubt is a full of contradictions and the process of pain.In the interview,Her tears several times in tears fall.

　　汪笑和她的同学是前天下午获悉郭衡去世的消息的。她和郭衡是同学，又因为家离得近，接触也比别的同学多。高中三年，她们始终是可以聊得天昏地暗的好朋友。在汪笑的心目中，郭衡是一个特别活泼的乐天派。“乐观、坚强、阳光、向上”是同学对她的评价，郭衡还是她们班的班长，工作能力也得到了大家的认可。因此，郭衡去世的消息，对大家打击非常大。

Wang smile and her classmates is the day before yesterday afternoon GuoHeng learned of the news of the death.She and GuoHeng are classmates,And because home leave near,Contact also more than other students.High school three years,They are always can talk to her good friend.In wang smile of mind,GuoHeng is a particularly lively optimist."optimistic/strong/The sun/up"Are classmates for her evaluation,GuoHeng or their class monitor,Ability to work also got recognition.therefore,GuoHeng news of the death,To all hit is very large.

　　“具体的事情一时说不上来，但我对她的记忆是点点滴滴的，可惜都已成了追忆。”汪笑说，郭衡是一个大大咧咧的“假小子”，办事总是风风火火的，她印象最深的是，郭衡竟然可以一边蹬着单排轮滑一边写作业！

"Specific things at that time don't know how to say it,But I told her memory is the dribs and drabs,Unfortunately all has become a retrospection."Wong said, laughing,GuoHeng is a careless"tomboy",Always the USSR,She is the deepest impression,GuoHeng could while riding on the roller blade side to write the homework!

　　高中毕业后，郭衡去了美国留学。但汪笑和郭衡并未因为远隔重洋而断了联系。“我这个人比较懒，因此每次都是郭衡打电话过来。还像以前那么聊天，也没发现她有什么烦恼啊！相反，我有什么烦心事总会跟她说，她也总是安慰我。”

After graduating from high school,,GuoHeng went to study in the United States.But wang laughter and GuoHeng did not because across the sea and break a contact."I this man is lazy,So every time is GuoHeng call.Still less chat,Also didn't find what she has trouble!instead,What is my troubles will always say to her,She also always comfort me."

　　出国后，郭衡也回来过几次。最近的一次是2010年，回来举行婚礼。“我们同学都去了，场面很温馨。她老公是一个美籍华裔，感觉很绅士，两个人看起来也很甜蜜。”

After going abroad,GuoHeng also come back a few times.A recent is 2010 years,Back wedding."We all went to the students,Scene is very sweet and.Her husband is a chinese-american,Feel very gentleman,Two men look is also very sweet."

　　汪笑和同学们没有想到，此次相逢，竟成永别。汪笑表示，因为签证原因，她们无法去美国参加当地11月3日的葬礼，但是她们会在网上建立一个灵堂来纪念她们曾经的班长、好友。

Wang laughter and the classmates didn't think,Meet the,Unexpectedly into farewell.Wong smile said,Because the visa reason,They can't go to the United States to participate in local on November 3 funeral,But they will be on the Internet to establish a mourning hall to commemorate their once monitor/friends.

　　

自述：有很多的不快乐 readme:There are a lot of unhappy

　　在同学们眼里如此开朗如此乐观的郭衡究竟为何殒命呢？在警方公布正式结论之前，所有的推断都只能是猜测。

In the eyes of students so cheerful so optimistic GuoHeng's exactly why?The police released official before conclusion,All of the inference are only guess.

　　但是，在郭衡的博客里，却不难发现，她也有许多不快乐的时候。这会是她离世的诱因吗？

but,In GuoHeng blog,But it is not difficult to find that,She also has many are not happy.This is her away from the incentive?

　　小时候，她不快乐。在郭衡的一篇博文里，她是这样描述自己的童年生活的。“小时候，家里生活困难，三岁的时候，我便离家，开始了一个星期只能回一次家的独立生活。在幼儿园里面，我经常是感到恐惧的。我没有朋友，而我又是那么可笑地自闭和敏感。别人随便对我说点什么我就当真，于是逆反和打击心理非常强，小学的时候常常跟班里的男同学打架。这种没有朋友的状态一直持续到了初中。可是，好不容易交了四个女生好朋友，还都被我气走过。”

When I was a child,She is not happy.In a GuoHeng in bowen,She is such a description of his childhood."When I was a child,Home life difficult,At the age of three,I will left home,Began a week can return a house independent life.In the kindergarten in,I often feel fear.I have no friends,I am so ridiculously self-closing and sensitive.Others just say to me something I really,So negative and cracking down on psychological very strong,The primary school often footman in male classmate fight.This without friends state until the junior middle school.but,Very not easy made four girls good friends,Also is my spirit through."

　　“先天体质的柔弱，导致了后天发育的不健全和心理的进一步压力。我是典型的太平公主，在高中的时候别人还在嘲笑我说我像男孩子。”

"Congenital constitution of the tender,Led to the development of the day after tomorrow is not sound and psychological further pressure.I am the typical peace princess,In high school in others laugh at me that I like the boy."

　　更有可能施加影响的是，她离婚了。

More likely to influence is,She got a divorce.

　　汪笑和她的前夫在同学们眼中是幸福的一对，婚姻却没有维持长久。对于这一点，她在博客里也有描述：“生命在2010年以后就开始变得很快。首先是结婚，我非常精确地按照父母的旨意在26岁生日那天办完了我中西合璧的婚礼，并开始准备完美的28岁在顶尖商学院生小孩的计划。生活到这个时候，虽然很辛苦，一直都很所谓完美。然而，关上门回到家里，问题却非常深刻。”

Wang smile and her ex-husband in students eyes are a happy pair,The marriage did not maintain long.For this,She in the blog also is described:"Life in the 2010 years later began to become soon.The first is to get married,I'm very accurately according to the will of the parents in 26 years old birthday that day when my of match well of Chinese and western wedding,And start to prepare the perfect 28 years old in top business schools have children plan.Life by this time,Although it's hard work,Has always been very perfection.however,Shut the door back to home,Questions are very deep."

　　“……在我总算能够决定摆脱婚姻枷锁，父母的忧虑，去面对自己的独立性，寻找自己幸福的同时，也正是我毛毛虫脱茧的时刻。我要飞，蓝天才是我的未来，我一切都不管了，我再也不要被人唾弃地以他人的标准去循规蹈矩地爬了！”

"……I can finally decided to get rid of the shackles of marriage,Parents' fears,To face their own independence,Looking for his happiness at the same time,It is also I caterpillar to take off the cocoon moment.I want to fly,The blue sky is my future,I am all alone,I never want to be spurn in other people's standard to climb the rule!"

　　

办公司：不被支持的决定 office:Don't be support decision

　　去年，郭衡还在美国成立了一家公司自然龙集团（Natural Loong Group）。按照郭衡所述，这个公司成立的初衷是回归本真，推崇自然，和谐，健康的生活模式。“公司的经营模式将会以网络社区，远程教学，个人国学私塾的形式为主，为真正的精英带来一对一的高质服务。”然而公司的成立却没有得到父亲和老师的支持。郭衡在博客中这样描述：“作为发起人，我个人在这个公司上要投入所有‘业余’时间和这几年投行攒下来的钱，于是我爸爸对我要超越能源投资的本行，办一个养生的公司非常不支持。爸爸非常不客气地说我：你以为你懂什么？一个好点子跟商业运作还差得远。你说的也许很理想，但是可能吗？老师一听我要投一百万人民币才能把这个架子搭起来，一开始也非常不支持。他说，咱们做善事是好事，但是不能把自己搭进去啊。对于我的父亲和待我如父亲的老师的看法，我不是没有思考过。但是，在华尔街犹太人的家族里这几年干下来，我对企业运作，风险和回报都形成了不同的见解。”

Last year,In the United States GuoHeng also set up a company natural dragon group(Natural Loong Group).According to the GuoHeng mentioned,The company established original intention is a return to natural,Praise highly nature,harmonious,Healthy life style."The company's business model will take the network community,Remote teaching,Individual Chinese traditional learning in the form of private give priority to,For true elite bring one-on-one with high quality service."However the establishment but didn't get the support of the father and the teacher.GuoHeng in the blog this description:"As the,I personally in this company to put on all‘amateur’Time and this years investment bank saving down money,So my father to me to transcend energy investment field,Run a health company very does not support.Father is very unkindly said I:You think you know what?A good idea with commercial operation still worse than.What you say may be very ideal,But it is possible to?The teacher a listen to I'll vote for one million yuan to set up this shelf,The beginning is also very does not support.He said,Let's do good is good,But can not put himself in ah.For my father and to me as a father's the teacher's view,I don't be to have no thought.but,On Wall Street in the family of the jews in recent years dry down,I to the enterprise operation,Risk and return are formed different opinions."

　　

求学：“要付出毕生精力” school:"To pay his life energy"

　　在外人眼里看来，她是麻省理工学院的精英。但是却少有人知道她所承受的心理压力。她在博客中这样写道：“在哈佛上暑期班，一样年纪的美国上层阶级的女孩子，不论是白人还是华人，都要比我成熟和老练很多。”“在麻省理工商学院，跟世界的高级人才比，我唯一的优势就是一口流利的中文……同学们不光工作认真勤奋，并且十分高效和考虑周全。不光学业和工作的专业程度让我无法胜出，而且我发现他们很会说话和做人。他们知道什么时候该说什么，知道如何不动声色地达到他们的目的。”

In the eyes of outsiders seems,She is at the Massachusetts institute of technology's elite.But few people know what she bear psychological pressure.She wrote in the blog:"In the harvard summer school,As old as American upper class girl,Whether white or Chinese,Than I mature and sophisticated many.""In the Mit business school,With the world than senior talents,My only advantage is fluent Chinese……Students not only work earnestly diligence,And very efficient and thoughtful.Not only studies and work of the professional degree let I can't win,And I found that they are talking and person.They know when to say,Know how to stay calm and collected to achieve their purpose."

　　为了弥补自己的所谓不足，郭衡付出了常人难以想象的努力。在博客中，她这样表述：“在游学这方面，我到现在为止走访了35个国家和地球两极，上了西藏，下了深海，探访了宗教圣地耶路撒冷两次。而在拜师方面，我已经有不下十位完全不同的我敬重为老师的人，从医学到艺术到商业到人文到体育竞技，我都在马不停蹄地补课。我现在才意识到，人类社会里面的真知，我今年才勉强找到门。从这一刻开始，做到世界级，每一步都将非常艰难。每一个小小的进步，都会越来越难以达到，而我将会为此付出一生的精力。”

In order to make up for his lack of so-called,GuoHeng pay the unimaginable to ordinary people.In the blog in,She this statement:"Studies in this respect,I so far visited 35 countries and at the earth's poles,On the Tibet,Down the deep sea,Visit the religious holy Jerusalem two times.And in the master aspects,I have no fewer than ten different I respect for the teacher's people,Specialty learn art to business to the humanity to sports competition,I have been on the make up a missed lesson.I realize now,The human society is inside,I this year ability is forced to find the door.From this moment,Do world-class,Every step will be very difficult.Every little progress,Will be more and more difficult to achieve,And I will pay the life energy."

　　但是谁也没有料到，在博客中要为游学付出一生的精力的郭衡，花样的生命却在这样一个秋冬之际戛然而止。究竟是什么压倒了她生命中的最后一根稻草？（记者 徐再杰 王梦龙 实习生 李飞）

But who also did not expect,In the blog of travel devoted his life GuoHeng energy,Figure life but in such a qiu dong an abrupt end of.What is her life down the last straw?(Reporter xu jie WangMengLong interns LiFei again)