作家、北大教授曹文轩与郑球洋 writer/Peking University professor with the attempt to ZhengQiu

　　自上世纪二三十年代始，“旁听”作为一项传统，被北京大学一直保留至今。开国领袖毛泽东也曾是北大的一名旁听生，著名的文学大家沈从文、女作家丁玲、原中国作协副主席冯雪峰都有过旁听经历。如今每年仍有上千人在北大旁听，江西赣州的郑球洋就是其中一员，2001年，正值高三的他毅然退学附北大旁听，成为像沈从文那样的文学大家。

Since the beginning of s,"audit"As a traditional,Is Beijing university has been maintained today.MAO zedong was a guest student at Peking University,The famous literature you shen congwen/Writer ding ling/The vice chairman of China's one FengXueFeng have audit experience.Now there are still thousands of people each year at Peking University audit,Ganzhou in jiangxi province of the ZhengQiu is one,In 2001,,When the high he resolutely drop out of school with Peking University audit,Be like shen congwen that literature everyone.

　　日前，郑球洋回到江西老家录制《深度观察》节目，节目现场，郑球洋讲述了自己11年旁听求学路的痛苦经历，却在现场引发嘉宾和观众的一致质疑。

a,The ZhengQiu back to jiangxi home record[Depth observation]program,Program field,The ZhengQiu tells the story of his 11 years to sit in on the pain of study and experience,But in the guests and trigger the same question.

不屑文凭放弃高考 获北大教授曹文轩鼓励赴北大旁听 Despise diploma to give up the attempt to encourage college entrance examination of Peking University professor of Peking University to sit on

　　在节目现场，郑球洋说自己当年和韩寒等众多文学青年一样，热爱文学，2001年，他参加选拔出韩寒、郭敬明等少年作家的新概念作文大赛，也因此认识了作为评委的作家、北大教授曹文轩，他主动跟曹文轩教授写信打电话，曹教授鼓励他“你这么痴迷文学，可以来北大旁听”。

In the program,The ZhengQiu said that his and han han, and many other literature youth,Love literature,In 2001,,He took part in the selection of han han/Guo jingming young writers such as new concept composition contest,So know as the writer/Peking University professor attempt,He volunteered to professor attempt to call letter,Professor cao encourage him"You're so crazy literature,Can come to Peking University audit".

　　有了曹教授的鼓励，加之年少轻狂的他认为“文凭只是一张纸，不能证明自己的才华，应该去北大那样的学术殿堂，听钱理群、曹文轩等名师的课程，接受他们的熏陶，写出自己满意的作品，向社会证明”。当时成绩排年级第三的他毅然主动放弃高考，赴北大旁听，至今已有11年。

The professor cao encouragement,Together with dazed and confused he think"Diploma is just a piece of paper,Can't prove his talent,Should go to Peking University that academic achievement,Listen to QianLiQun/Such as the course adopts famous,Accept their edification,Write about your satisfactory work,Social proof to".Was ranked third grade he resolutely give up the university entrance exam,To Peking University audit,So far there have been 11 years.

　　郑球洋说他最大的梦想就是成为他的偶像沈从文那样的文学大家，然而他的临场反应，无论是现场作诗还是即兴对联，都没有显现出他的文学功底和才华，评论员石述思现场出了一副名对联的上联：“东西当铺当东西”，郑球洋对以：“南北烧饼卖烧饼。”

The ZhengQiu said his biggest dream is to be his idol shen congwen that literature everyone,But his approach reaction,Whether the poem or improvisational couplet,Didn't show his literary skills and talent,Commentators ShiShuSi field out of a pair of name couplet part:"Things pawnshop when things",ZhengQiu to the:"North and south baked wheat cake sold baked wheat cake."

　　现场嘉宾和观众对他放弃高考，希望通过旁听而成为“沈从文”这个远大梦想的可行性提出了质疑。只有石述思对他表示了理解和鼓励：“人不轻狂枉少年，青春就是用来犯错误的。郑球洋只是拿自己的宝贵青春，来探索别人认为错误的道路。”

The guests and for him to give up the university entrance exam,Hope that through audit and become"Shen congwen"The feasibility of this great dream questioned.Only ShiShuSi to he said the understanding and encouragement:"People do not frivolous waste young,Youth is to use against the wrong.The ZhengQiu just take their precious youth,To explore other people think the wrong way."

艰难求学食不果腹 痛苦经历为何遭全场质疑 Hard study have little food to eat bitter experience in the question why

　　郑球洋追梦11年，给他的家庭带来深重的影响，甚至是灾难。郑球洋的老邻居郑有荣作为郑球洋父母的代言人，现身《深度观察》的演播厅，据郑有荣说，郑球洋的家庭十分贫困，他们村有100多户人家，郑球洋家是最困难的，母亲患有精神病无法劳作，父亲已步入花甲，身体不好，全家就靠这一个劳动力养活。

The ZhengQiu endeavor for 11 years,To his family brought serious influence,And even disasters.ZhengQiu the old neighbor ZhengYouRong as the spokesperson ZhengQiu parents,appeared[Depth observation]Studio of,According to ZhengYouRong said,ZhengQiu the family is very poor,They village has more than 100 households,ZhengQiu the home is the most difficult,Mother had suffered from mental illness can't work,Father has stepped into sixty years,Poor health,Family depends on this a labor to support.

　　郑球洋离家的那个晚上，他的母亲哭了一夜，半年后，母亲得了精神分裂症，已经不认得他是谁。在节目现场，郑球洋回忆起母亲送别自己时的依依不舍，再回想到如今母亲在电话那头的漠然，这两个场景让这个在外求学十一载的游子，难以自控地放声大哭，这不仅是一个儿子未能尽孝的愧疚和自责，更是对自己的悔恨，如果他不离开，母亲也许不会这样。

The ZhengQiu left home that night,His mother cried all night,After half a year,Mother got schizophrenia,Have do not know who he is.In the program,The ZhengQiu recall his mother farewell to the,Recall the until now the mother in the telephone the head of nonchalance,The two scene let this out eleven years of study to take,Difficult to control to weep aloud,This is not only a son hoping to the guilt and remorse,But for their own regret,If he didn't leave,Mother may not be so.

　　然而，当初得知母亲的病情之后，他却并没有回家探望，而是选择继续留在北大，直到2005年，郑球洋才第一次回家，回家的原因也不是探望父母，而是因为他在北京的生活难以为继，需要家人伸出援手。

however,Mother had learned that after illness,But he did not go home to visit,But choose to continue to stay in Peking University,Until 2005,ZhengQiu only the first home,The cause of the home is not to see his parents,But because he lives in Beijing unsustainable,Family need to lend a hand.

　　由于没有经济来源，郑球洋在北大的旁听生活过得食不果腹、举步维艰，他曾经整整7天7夜没吃过东西，最后不得不用变卖衣服换来的十几块钱买馒头充饥。因为无钱支付房租，他还曾被房东在大年三十之前赶出门，在北大的未名湖畔的寒风中挨过了一个痛苦的除夕夜。但这些并没有打动嘉宾和观众，一位大学生观众说：“一开始听你的故事我还感动流泪，听完你的家庭状况之后，我觉得你还是饿着吧！”

Since there is no economic source,The ZhengQiu at Peking University audit life have little food to eat/struggling,He had the last 7 days and nights hadn't had a bite to eat,Finally had to sell the clothes for more than ten dollars to buy food in the steamed bread.Because there is no money to pay the rent,He also was the landlord in the eve of out before,In the north of the WeiMing lake in the cold wind of suffer through a painful on New Year's eve.But these did not impress guests and the audience,A college student audience said:"A began to listen to your story I have tears,After hearing your family status later,I think you still hungry it!"

　　观众对郑球洋新生愤怒，然而先前支持过郑球洋的石述思却表示，他感到一种全方位的凄凉，他认为郑球洋追求的已经不是文学，也不是梦想，就是一种“成功”的欲望，不成功毋宁死，连亲人都不顾。“香港有一首歌，叫算你狠，可是这种狠，你也许得搭上人世间最宝贵的一些东西，比如亲情，比如爱情，再比如该在一个年龄，通过自己的奋斗获得的所有快乐。”

To the audience ZhengQiu new anger,But previous ZhengQiu support the ShiShuSi has said,He felt a kind of comprehensive and desolate,He thinks that the ZhengQiu pursue is not literature,Also is not a dream,Is a kind of"success"desire,Don't succeed give me liberty or give me death,Even loved ones will not regard."Hong Kong has a song,That calculate you malicious,But this kind of malicious,You may have to take on the most valuable things,Such as family,Such as love,To such as this in a age,Through their own struggle to attain all happy."

　　北大旁听生中出了不少名人，除了毛泽东、沈从文、丁玲等，还有柔石、瞿秋白等革命家，北大百年积淀的学术氛围，引无数学子心向往之。如今，郑球洋正式被北大录取，然而回溯交织着苦闷与希冀的旁听生涯，梦想和现实如何平衡？家人和遥不可知的前途谁更可贵？就如主持人涂磊在节目最后的寄语：“不要打着梦想的旗号，去伤害你的亲人，头顶理想主义的天空，脚踩现实主义的大地，心中充满爱，你才配谈理想。”（江西电视台）

North auditor made a lot of celebrities,In addition to MAO zedong/Shen congwen/Ding ling, etc,And roushi began to edit yusi magazine/Qu qiubai etc revolutionist,Peking University in one hundred, accumulation of academic atmosphere,Lead countless students dream of heart.now,The ZhengQiu will be officially admitted to Peking University,However back mixed with anguish and wishes to sit in on career,Dream and reality how to balance?Family and remote unknowable future who is more valuable?As the host TuLei in program last message:"Don't under the banner of dreams,To hurt your loved ones,The sky overhead idealism,Foot realism of the earth,Love in your heart,You can talk with ideal."(Jiangxi television)