父亲最大的遗憾： Father's biggest regret:

　　始终没能入党 Never can join the party

　　父亲是读过私塾的人，是一个谨小慎微的人。年龄大一点的人都会知道，农村当时阶级斗争的状况，什么地主、富农、富裕中农、贫农、中下农等等，过去就是家里越贫困，成分越低，那么在社会上政治地位越高。像我们这种富裕中农家庭，就介于“敌人”跟“自己人”之间，在这样一个阶级成分里，我父亲一直担任着大队的会计，那时候一个村子里能算账的人很少，地方的大队会计都是脱产的，而我父亲一直是非常卖命的工作，三十多年来，从来都是利用业余时间做这个会计的工作，而全高密县的生产大队的会计都是脱产坐办公室，所以这一点我觉得父亲是非常了不起的。他干活那叫一个卖力，他曾经也有一度想加入中国共产党，但是因为他的爸爸，就是我的大爷爷是地主，所以他也没加入。所以我父亲一生最大的遗憾，就是忠心耿耿地为共产党工作，甚至不惜身家性命地向党靠拢，可始终就没有当上一个共产党员。父亲的严明方正在村子里也是有口皆碑，我们对他也是敬畏大于亲近。

Father is read private person,Is an old maid.Older people will know,At that time the condition of rural class struggle,What the landlord/Rich peasants/Affluent middle peasants/Poor peasants/Agriculture and so on lower,The past is home more poverty,Composition is lower,So in society the higher political status.As we this rich middle peasant family,Just between"The enemy"with"own"between,In such a class in the composition,My father always holds a large group of accounting,At that time, a village very few people can cast accounts,Local brigade accounting is a full-time,And my father has been very hard work,Thirty years,Never is the use of spare time to do the accounting work,And the whole densified county production brigade accounting are full-time sit in the office,So this point I think father is very great.He worked that call a hard,He had also have once want to join the communist party of China,But because of his father,Is my great grandpa is the landlord,So he didn't join.So my father life biggest regret,Is loyal to the communist party work,Even at the cost to life lay close to the party,But always there is no as a communist party member.Father's YanMingFang is the village is also win universal praise,We fear he is greater than close.

　　我小时候特别怕我的父亲，包括我的哥哥、姐姐都非常怕。因为他在外面应付着整个社会，回家的时候他筋疲力尽，情绪极其恶劣，外面忍气吞声、受人辱骂，还得不断地卖力干活，受了最大的屈辱，而回家又不可能对我们说什么，再像现在的父亲一样，呵护女儿、呵护儿子，这是不可能的。所以我完全理解父亲，那我们对他就是敬畏，能躲就躲。我就记得小时候，当我正在调皮捣蛋，有人说：“你爹来了。”我就立刻被吓得全身僵硬、汗如雨下，好长时间才能回过神来，就怕到这种程度。但慢慢地我父亲也讲，虎老了不咬人了，老虎老了也会变慈祥了。随着后来社会的这种环境逐渐变好，政治阶级斗争慢慢地淡化，社会上以出身欺压人的现象也越来越少，物质生活也逐渐改善，父亲的情绪也是越来越好。后来到了晚年，他经常给我讲很多的故事，讲战争啊，讲他亲身经历的一些历史事件，爷爷奶奶的，大爷爷大奶奶的，母亲家族的，这些也都成了我写作的宝贵素材。

When I was a child I especially afraid of my father,Including my brother/My sister is very afraid.Because he's out cope with the whole society,Home he was exhausted,Mood very bad,Suffer indignities without protest outside/Being abused,Still have to constantly hard work,Received the biggest humiliation,And go home and can't say to us,Then as now, father,Caress daughter/Caress son,It is not possible.So I understand my father,The he is fear,Can hide were hiding.I remember when I was a child,When I was a naughty boy,Some say:"You dad came."I immediately was scared stiff body/Sweat profusely,For a long time to come to his senses,They were afraid to such a degree.But slowly my father also speaks,Tiger old don't bite a person,The tiger old also can become the kind.Along with the later social this kind of environment gradually better,Political class struggle slowly fade,The society to born oppressor phenomenon also less and less,Material life also gradually improve,Father's mood is getting better and better.Later in his,He often told me a lot of stories,Speak war!,About his experience of some historical events,Grandpa grandma's,Great grandpa great grandma's,Mother family,All these became my writing precious material.

　　后来我印象最深的就是开始写作《红高粱》之前的时候，他和我讲游击队天天打仗，因为使用的手枪，我们叫驳壳枪，由于打得子弹太多发热了，枪筒都甩来甩去，都甩长了。当然我知道这是一个绝对夸张的细节，枪筒会发热，甚至会打红枪筒，这个都是可能的，不可能驳壳枪来回甩动，把枪瞄子、枪筒都甩长了一寸。实际上人就是多个侧面的，我相信父亲也有这种天性幽默的一面，但就是在那个社会里压抑着没办法表现出来。

Then I started writing is the deepest impression[Red sorghum]Time before,He and I speak guerrilla war every day,Because the use of pistol,We call mauser pistol,Due to play too much heat the bullets,Gun barrel are left to jilt to,Are jilt long.Of course I know that this is an absolute exaggerated details,Gun barrel will heat,Even can make red gun barrel,This is possible,Can't mauser pistol rotate back and forth,The gun aiming the son/Gun barrel are jilt long one inch.In fact people are more lateral,I believe that the father also have the humorous side of nature,But even in that society can't suppress the show.

　　

题字： inscription:

　　高密县厕所的字没准都是我写的 High-density county toilet word maybe is I write

　　我是从2005年开始拿起笔来学写字。为什么突然对书法感兴趣的原因还得从一次活动说起。因为当时我要去日本北海道访问，带着一个记者代表团，想准备两件给日本北海道市政府的礼物，然后就想求几个书法家，找了教育部的几个朋友，求书法家写字，后来求不来，人家要价很高，后来我的朋友说，那你自己写吧，然后他们就给我扛来纸，扛来笔，让我开始写，我一直断断续续有一搭没一搭地慢慢练，后来慢慢地竟然有了一些名气，现在求我写字的人越来越多。我没有临摹过，就是在自己的字体上，刚开始用右手写，写得很像我的钢笔字，因为我钢笔字写了一辈子写得太熟练了，如果书法写得仅仅像是放大的钢笔字我觉得挺没意思的，索性我后来用左手写，现在我都是用左手写毛笔字。

I began in 2005 picked up a pen to learning to write.Why suddenly to the calligraphy interested reason have to from a activities about.Because I was going to visit Japan Hokkaido,With a journalist delegation,Want to prepare two to Japan Hokkaido city gift,And then want to ask several calligrapher,The ministry of education to find a few friends,Calligrapher write for,Then ask not to,People high in cost,Later my friend said,That you write their own it,Then they will give me to carry to paper,Carry to pen,Let me begin to write,I have been on and off one build what did not build practice slowly,Then slowly unexpectedly some famous,O my people write more and more.I don't have a copy,Even in their own the typeface,Just started to write with the right hand,Write very like me an hour.than play games,Because I write an hour.than play games all his life to write too skillful,If the calligraphy write just like amplification an hour.than play games I feel pretty dull,I was simply write with the left hand,Now I was writing brush calligraphy with his left hand.

　　一开始陌生感是有的，就像小学生刚开始写字一样，从生写到熟，我左手的字和右手的字比较，更像书法，右手的就是放大的钢笔字，现在我发现很多这种半路出家的人写得所谓的书法，实际上都是把钢笔字用毛笔写出来，骨架的感觉还是钢笔字。我就是想写一种带着天真活泼的东西，不脱童趣，有童真，甚至带着几分恶作剧来写字。不过这么多年也写得太多了，我们高密县的厕所的字没准都是我写的。男、女，所有的人都找我写，我父亲说你别乱写，你写多了就让人笑话了。现在看来这个爱好又变成一种负担了，天天来应付求字的人，我又不愿意写别人现成的字，什么“厚德载物”、“宁静致远”，老想写一点新词，比如说，文学馆要搞一面紫砂墙，好像要镶嵌上好多紫砂壶，他们让我写一篇跟紫砂、茶，还有文学有关的，于是我就写了一首打油诗，拿起笔来：

The beginning is some strangeness,Like pupil has just started to write the same,From birth wrote cooked,I left word and the word is right,More like calligraphy,The right hand is enlarged an hour.than play games,Now I find a lot of this halfway decent people write the so-called calligraphy,In fact is to write an hour.than play games with brush,Skeleton feeling or an hour.than play games.I just want to write a with innocent and lively things,Not to take off tong qu,A childlike innocence,Even with a somewhat trick to write.But so many years also write too much,We densified county toilet word maybe is I write.male/female,All the people are looking for me to write,My father says you don't scribble,You write more let people joke.Now it appears that the interest and become a burden,To cope with the everyday for word people,And I don't want to write other ready-made word,what"""/"Slow and steady wins the race.",Old want to write a little new words,For example,Museum to make a violet arenaceous wall,If to enchase on a lot of dark-red enameled pottery,They let me write an article with violet arenaceous/tea,And the relevant literature,So I just wrote a doggerel,Picked up a pen to:

　　一把紫砂壶

A violet arenaceous crock

　　二两明前茶

Two MingQian tea

　　独坐一斗阁

Sitting in a bucket pavilion

　　思绪到天涯

Thoughts to the

　　因为我在高密县的房子上面有个阁楼，现在阁楼上放有一张书桌，这阁楼就叫“一斗阁”。后来作协的一个领导来找我，他的笔名叫“焰火”，我刚开始想写“星星之火、可以燎原”，但是写错了，一下写成“星星之花”了，那我就将错就错就编了，变成了：

Because I am in high-density county house which has a garret,Now put the attic has a desk,The attic is called"A bucket pavilion".Then one of a leading to seek me,His pen name"fireworks",I started to write"A single spark/Can start a prairie fire",But write wrong,Once written"Stars flowers"the,Then I went ahead is made,became:

　　星星之花原上开

The flower of stars on the open

　　引得凤蝶联袂来

That papilio teamed up to

　　莫到会馆地面小

Mo to assembly hall ground small

　　高朋满座皆贤才

Honour all people

　　如果说我有什么长项的话，就是喜欢写打油诗。在农村，村里的很多农民都有这个才能，我们村子里面有很多一个字不认识的人，都能出口成章，字字押韵。所以从小就跟他们学，看来将来可以以打油诗为生，没准儿过两年出本打油诗集。

If I have what good at words,Is like writing doggerel.In the countryside,The village many farmers have this ability,In our village there are many a word does not know,Can have an outstanding eloquence,Uttering the rhyme.So since the childhood learning with them,It seems the future can doggerel for a living,Maybe after two years out of the buy oil of poetry.

　

　将来：要到没有路的地方去走 future:Want to go instead where there is no path

　　我记得曾经在1986年的时候说过四句话：树立一个属于自己对人生的看法，开辟一个属于自己领域的阵地，建立一个属于自己的人物体系，形成一套属于自己的叙述风格。25年过去了，针对这四点，我基本上是做到了，我想我现在对人生的看法是越来越宽容了，就觉得一个人应该要宽容地看待别人，严格地看待自己。人生实际上就是一个过程，可以学到的东西有很多，所以无喜无悲，很多东西悲观也罢、喜悦也罢，实际上都是一些小波小澜。那么开辟一个属于自己的阵地，我想高密东北乡应该就是我的阵地了，这个阵地也在不断地扩大着它的疆土。建立自己的一个人物体系，那就是在我的小说里面，当时我是这样想的，我写完了《红高粱》家族以后，《红高粱》这部小说是写爷爷奶奶的，然后我想写第二部，写父亲母亲，然后再写哥哥姐姐我们这一辈，形成了一个完整的家族体系，从历史延续到当今。把想写的人物都逐渐地写了，把小说里所有的人集合起来，可以组成一个村庄了。再就是形成自己的一套叙述风格，这个基本上也是实现了，我按照他们讲得这种披头散发式的、泥沙俱下式的，不过我觉得现在也在变，《蛙》进行了一些尝试，力图把过去那种太过张扬的风格做一些收敛。

I remember once in 1986, said the four words:Set up a to belong to his outlook on life,Open up a to belong to own territory position,To establish a to belong to own character system,To form a set of his own narrative style.25 years,In view of this four,I basically is done,Now I think I view of life is more and more tolerant,Feel a person should be tolerant to look at other people,Strictly see yourself.Life is actually a process,Can learn many things,So no joy without sorrow,A lot of things or pessimistic/Joy or,In fact is a small wave small billows.So open up a to belong to own position,I want to high-density northeast township should is my position the,This position is in constant expanding its territory.Build your own a character system,That is in my novel inside,At that time I think so,I finished[Red sorghum]Family after,[Red sorghum]The novel is to write the grandma and grandpa,Then I want to write the second part,Write a mother and a father,Then write brother elder sister we this generation,Formed a complete family system,From the historical continued to the present day.To want to write the characters gradually wrote,All the people in the novel set up,Can form a village.Then form his own a set of narrative style,This is basically realized,I speak according to their this with disheveled hair type/NiShaJuXia type,But I think now also change,[frog]Some try to,Try to put the past that too make public style do some convergence.

　　今后这条路实际上越来越难走。我不久前也说过，将来就是要到没有路的地方去走，有路的地方就不能再走了，前面的道路应该是披荆斩棘的前进，包括跟自己过去的写作决裂，你过去这样写，今后不应该那样写，但是这非常难。因为每一个作家都是有限度的，否则的话没有必要有那么多作家，一个人就够了。所以我想我今后还能不能写出自己比较满意、读者也比较满意的作品呢，真是个未知数，很可能就写不出来了，当然也很可能没准儿冒出一部好作品来。

In the future the road in fact more and more difficult to walk.I also said not long ago,The future is going to go instead where there is no path,Where a road can't go any farther,In front of the road should be the inner forward,Including with his past writing rupture,You used to write like this,The future shouldn't write,But it is very difficult.For every writer are limited,Otherwise there is no need to have so many writers,One person is enough.So I think in the future I can write his own relatively satisfied/Readers also comparatively satisfied work?,Is really a unknown,Probably can't write out,Of course is also likely to maybe emitted a good works.

　　莫言已经五十七，心中无悲也无喜。

Mo yan has 57,Heart no grief nor xi.

　　经常静坐想往事，眼前云朵乱纷披。

Often sit to the past,Eyes FenPi clouds disorderly.

　　人生虽说如梦幻，革命还是要到底。

Although life such as fantasy,Revolution or exactly.

　　革命就是写小说，写好才能对起自己。

The revolution was to write novels,Write to up.

　　——莫言 写给自己

Mo yan - to yourself