尽管面对着父亲的黑脸，但父亲在医院治疗的3天里，苗卫芳一步不离病床。3天之后，脱离生命危险的苗风山从石家庄回了家。面对身体虚弱、无法下地的老父亲，苗卫芳觉得这些年来对不起这个家，对不起父母。苗卫芳为何一直找不到工作，他又有着怎样的经历和梦想呢？

Although facing the father's bad,But his father in the hospital treatment of three days,MiaoWeiFang step from the bed.Three days after,From the risk of life-threatening MiaoFengShan from shijiazhuang home.In the face of weak/Earth cannot the old father,MiaoWeiFang think these years I'm sorry this home,I'm sorry parents.MiaoWeiFang why always find a job,He has what kind of experience and dreams?

　　曾为代课教师，月薪240元 Had to substitute teachers,Monthly salary is 240 yuan

　　1971年6月，苗卫芳出生在柳树沟村，他上有一个哥哥，下有一个妹妹。尽管苗卫芳平时木讷 ，话语不多，但在家里的老人看来“苗卫芳悟性高，背过的课文忘不了”。

In June 1971,MiaoWeiFang was born in willow ditch village,He has a brother,Have a younger sister.Although MiaoWeiFang simple-hearted at ordinary times ,Few words,But the old man looks at home"MiaoWeiFang understanding high,Back of the text forget".

　　之后，苗卫芳考取了内蒙古呼和浩特的管理干部学院。毕业后，苗卫芳做了一名乡村医生，并在老家按照习俗娶了媳妇。

after,MiaoWeiFang are eligible for the Inner Mongolia Hohhot management cadre institute.After graduation,MiaoWeiFang do a country doctor,And in their hometown according to custom married daughter-in-law.

　　在当时父母的眼里，苗卫芳尽管上了学没在城里上班，但毕竟“有了婆姨”，也算是成家了。在柳树沟这个偏僻的乡村，人家的闺女能嫁到山里来，儿子能娶上个“婆姨”暖和被窝，也算是了老人的一桩心事。

In the eyes of the parents at that time,MiaoWeiFang although school didn't go to work in the city,But after all"A PoYi",Also be married.Willow ditch in this remote village,The somebody else's girl can marry into the mountains to,Son can marry last"PoYi"Warm bed,The old man is also a concern.

　　可这种幸福的小日子并没有在苗卫芳和妻子之间维持多久。新婚两年之后，小两口离婚了。

Can this kind of happiness is not in doing MiaoWeiFang between wife and how long.New two years later,Young couple divorced.

　　离婚之后，面对一贫如洗的家 ，苗卫芳觉得只有知识是改变命运的唯一出路，之后，单身的苗卫芳开始在家挑灯夜读，踏上了自学之路。

After divorce,In the face of the poor house ,MiaoWeiFang think only knowledge change destiny is the only way out,after,Single MiaoWeiFang start reading all night at home,On the road to self-study.

　　经过数年努力，苗卫芳拿到了大学自学本科学历。

After several years of hard work,MiaoWeiFang got the university self-study bachelor degree.

　　有了学历之后，他想跳出世代为农的大门，他开始带着毕业证行走于老家附近的一些乡村中学，希望把自己所学的知识发挥出来，做个教师。

After a record of formal schooling,He wants to jump out of the door for the agriculture generation,He began to walk with a diploma in some rural middle school near home,Hope their knowledge plays out,Do a teacher.

　　当教师教学生，一方面适合自己的性格，自己也觉得有意义，另一方面也可以赚些钱补贴家用。

When teachers teach students,On the one hand for his own character,Oneself also feel meaningful,On the other hand also can earn some money subsidies household.

　　尽管第一次婚姻不成功，但在苗卫芳的心中，这次婚姻已经让父母几乎花光了所有的钱，身为家中的男人，他不能总靠着父亲这棵老树生活。

Although the first marriage is not successful,But in MiaoWeiFang heart,The marriage has been let parents almost spent all the money,As a family man,He can't always against the father this old tree life.

　　在自己不断的努力下，阜平县槐树庄中学答应他到学校当代课老师。

In their constant efforts,Fuping county locust tree village middle school promised him to school contemporary class teacher.

　　在学校代课，尽管每月只有240元的工资，这毕竟也让苗卫芳实现了早期的理想。

In the school substitute,Although only 240 yuan a month salary,It also let MiaoWeiFang realized early ideal.

　　为找“铁饭碗”多次跳槽 To find"Iron rice bowl"Multiple job-hopping

　　在学校的每一天，苗卫芳总是重复着他的语文教学，有时他想每月只有240元的工资，这对他来说，收入确实太低。更让他无法接受的是，尽管他的课学生喜欢，但学校不能为他解决终身“铁饭碗”的问题。

Each day in this school,MiaoWeiFang always repeat his Chinese teaching,Sometimes he want to only 240 yuan a month salary,"For him, this,Income really is too low.More let he couldn't accept is,Although his class students like,But the school does not tackle my whole life for him"Iron rice bowl"problems.

　　代课一年之后，苗卫芳从槐树庄中学辞职，又到了明星私立学校继续教书。到这所学校之后，问题仍和槐树庄中学一样，终身“铁饭碗”解决不了。随后，苗卫芳又辞职了。

Substitute after a year,MiaoWeiFang from sophora japonica chong middle school to resign,Again the star private schools continue to teach.To this school later,Problem is still and locust tree as the middle school,lifelong"Iron rice bowl"Not solve.then,MiaoWeiFang quit again.

　　辞职后的苗卫芳又到了护驾疃中学继续代课，这期间月工资已经到了700多元。

After the resignation MiaoWeiFang came again to guard the emperor Tuan middle school continue to substitute,During this period the monthly wages has reached 700 yuan.

　　这仍没有满足苗卫芳的需求，在这所学校代课不久的苗卫芳又先后两次跳槽，到了石家庄灵寿县的横山岭中学和龙舟中学代课。此时，他的工资达到了1200元/月。

This still does not meet the needs of the MiaoWeiFang,In this school substitute the near MiaoWeiFang and has two job-hopping,In shijiazhuang LingShouXian horizontal mountain middle school and dragon boat middle school substitute.At this time,His salary is achieved 1200 yuan/month.

　　老实木讷的苗卫芳在不断的跳槽间与一名同样在学校教书的老师碰撞出了爱情的火花。不久，苗卫芳与这名老师成亲。

Honesty MiaoWeiFang Harper, constantly between job with a also in school teacher collision out of the love of spark.soon,MiaoWeiFang and the teacher get married.

　　成亲后的苗卫芳没有新房子，带着妻子回家 ，新婚夫妇就居住在他在柳树沟村的那间低矮的房子里。

After their marriage MiaoWeiFang no new house,With his wife to go home ,The couple will live in him in the willow ditch village between the low house.

　　在不断的跳槽中，苗卫芳发现他和身边的同事付出了同样的甚至更多的劳动，他拿到的工资却不如正式老师拿到的一半，这让苗卫芳的心灵天平再次倾斜了。

In constant in the job,MiaoWeiFang found that he and colleagues to pay the same or even more labor,He get salary is not as good as the formal teacher to half,It makes MiaoWeiFang mind balance again lean.

　　此时的他仍觉得，唯有知识能改变他的命运，唯有学历能让他享受和别人一样的甚至超过别人的工资和待遇 ，唯有知识能让那些对他嗤之以鼻的人重新仰视他。

Right now he is still feel,Only knowledge can change his fate,Only education can let him enjoy and others or even more than other people's wages and treatment ,Only knowledge can make those who he sniffed people to look up to him.

　　2008年，经过自己的努力，他一举考取了河北大学近现代史专业的研究生。

In 2008,,Through their own efforts,He hit are eligible for the modern history of hebei university graduate.

　　消息传来，全村沸腾。

news,The village boiling.

　　苗卫芳的经历，让不足百人的小山村明白了一个道理：村娃子同样有智慧，村娃子同样能上好学校，小山村同样能飞出凤凰。

MiaoWeiFang experience,Less than one hundred people to the small mountain village understand a truth:CunWaZi also have wisdom,CunWaZi also is a good school,Small mountain village can also fly out of the order of the phoenix.

　　为此，苗卫芳成为村里的骄傲，苗卫芳成为苗家骄傲，苗卫芳更成为苗风山的骄傲。

therefore,MiaoWeiFang become the pride of the village,MiaoWeiFang become proud merchant,MiaoWeiFang more become the pride of the MiaoFengShan.

　　一家人盼着出息了的苗卫芳能以研究生的身份改变自己的命运，改变苗家老小的命运。

The family is looking forward to the prospects of the MiaoWeiFang to the graduate student's identity change their own destiny,Change the fate of the merchant family.

　　可事与愿违，苗卫芳的硕士研究生读完，并没有乡邻和苗家所盼望的那样，能改变命运走出村寨，而是苗卫芳最终带着毕业证和学位证回了柳树沟种起了地。

But contrary to,MiaoWeiFang master graduate student of reading,And not his neighbour and merchant hope so,Can change your fate out of the village,But MiaoWeiFang end with graduation certificate and degree certificate back to the willow ditch kind of up the earth.

　　让自己刻骨铭心的父亲自杀的经历发生之后，在父亲身体稍作好转，苗卫芳悄悄背起行囊，回了母校河北大学所在城市保定市。

Let oneself forget father committed suicide after experience happen,In the father's body make a little better,MiaoWeiFang quietly take the package,Back to the Alma mater hebei university city BaoDingShi.

　　服毒事件后回到城市 Poison after events go back to the city

　　回到保定后，苗卫芳在河北大学附近的一个农村租住了一个平房 ，一边找工作 ，一边致力于自己喜爱的文学创作。

Back after baoding,MiaoWeiFang in hebei university a nearby rural lodges a bungalow ,While looking for a job ,One side is committed to their favorite literary creation.

　　记者见到苗卫芳时，已是10月19日下午。

Reporters saw when MiaoWeiFang,Is already on October 19 afternoon.

　　之前通过电话的预约，在夕阳西下的余辉中，他骑着自行车来到河北大学校门前，眼前的苗卫芳很是瘦弱，皮肤黝黑。

By telephone appointment before,In the afterglow of the setting sun,He rode bike to hebei big school door,The sight of MiaoWeiFang is very thin,Dark skin.

　　自行车拐来拐去，15分钟后，记者随他来到了那个村落里的矮小房子。

Bike turn to turn to,After 15 minutes,Reporters as he came to the village in small house.

　　房子里除了一张床、一张桌子、一个电炉和一些书籍之外，少有其他物件，桌子上一个碗里盛着的是苗卫芳中午吃剩的半碗南瓜小米稀饭。河北的深秋，让这个昏暗的屋子显得冷冷的。

The house except for a bed/A table/A furnace and some books besides,Few other objects,The table a bowl filled with is MiaoWeiFang noon leftover half bowl of pumpkin millet porridge.Autumn in hebei province,Let the dark room is cold.

　　在经历了老家种田的日子和父亲自杀的切肤之痛后，苗卫芳仍时常想回家看看父亲，但他不敢。

After their hometown farming day and father committed suicide after keenly felt pain,MiaoWeiFang still often want to go home to see my father,But he didn't dare to.

　　“老父亲一见我回家就来气，”他说，“因为那次服药，老父亲的脸色至今青紫，那是后遗症，连说话也没以前利索了。”

"Old father saw me home to gas,"He said,"Because the drug,Old father looks blue today,That is sequela,Don't even talk to before the agile."

　　除了老父亲不再待见他这个儿子之外，他也明白，如今他一到村里乡邻们都会冷冷地看着他，只有笑容却不说话。

In addition to his old father will no longer be fond of this son outside,He also understood that,Now he a neighbor to the village they'll coldly looking at him,It takes only a smile but don't talk.

　　他清楚地记得，2012年春节，他因走亲戚到邻居家借一个自行车被拒的经历。

He clearly remember,The Spring Festival in 2012,He's relatives to borrow a bicycle rejected experience.

　　他更清楚地记得，就在他读研二时，因为他无力赚钱，她的第二任妻子与他离婚，离家而去。

He was more clearly remember,In his 2 to go to graduate school,Because he is unable to make money,Her second wife to divorce him,Left home and go to.

　　课余时间出过两本书

After school time had two books

　　十月的太行山区红叶漫山，瓜果飘香。

October taihang mountain red diffuse mountain,Melons and fruits.

　　在河北保定市阜平县城南庄镇柳树沟村67岁老人苗风山的家外，几个南瓜挂在树上。因为这南瓜是儿子苗卫芳春天种下的，此时的老人已无心将儿子所种的南瓜摘回家 。

BaoDingShi in hebei fuping county town willow ditch village, founded in, the 67 - year - old MiaoFengShan outside the house,A few pumpkins hanging in a tree.Because this pumpkin is a son MiaoWeiFang spring,The old man has a son will be the pumpkin pick home .

　　眼看南瓜熟透枝叶枯萎，老人何以不摘？在老人的眼里，儿子因“不成器”，成了他拒摘南瓜的理由。

See pumpkins and done die back,The old man why not pick?The old man's eyes,For the son"worthless",He refused to pick a pumpkin reason.

　　在与其交流的数个小时里 ，他的手里始终攥着那本《教师招聘考试专用教材》。他说他当前已经报考了一所学校的招聘考试，他不知道他的这次应试能否改变自己的命运。

In its ac several hours ,His hands always clutched the[The teacher recruitment exam special materials].He said his current has enter oneself for an examination a school recruitment exam,He didn't know his the exam-oriented can change our own destiny.

　　事实上早在读研一期间，苗卫芳就利用课余时间，出版了 30万字的小说《二月兰》；2011年6月与李卫东合作出版了 26万字的《大清河水系与津保内河航运研究》，自己还是保定市作家协会会员。

In fact as early as in a period to go to graduate school,MiaoWeiFang will use their spare time,Published 300000 words novel[February blue];In June 2011 and LiWeiDong cooperation published 260000 words[Big qinghe drainage and tianjin the inland waterway research],His or BaoDingShi writers association members.

　　苗卫芳曾在他的著作中评价自己说：年届不惑，然而世事尚不洞明，人情亦未练达；平生唯知耕田以奉亲，读书以自娱 ，淡泊以明志，宁静以致远；虽潦倒落魄，坎坷蹭蹬，仍意志不移 ，弦歌不辍。

MiaoWeiFang had in his writing evaluation of their own say:Years needs the,But the world is not fully understanding,Customs and also has not;Life is only to plow in close,Reading can ,Indifferent to simple,Peace so that far;Is down come down in the world,Bumpy meet with setbacks,Still will not shift ,Ceaselessly system.

　　文/图 信报特派河北保定记者 王永端

Wen/diagram hkej accredited hebei baoding reporter WangYongDuan