特殊的母亲 Special mother

　　因为拒绝向福利院交出孩子，火灾过后，袁厉害开始饱受争议。有网友质疑他称，她收养孩子，是别有用心，那种不愿交出孩子的执拗“无法理解”。

Because the welfare of children refused to surrender,After the fire,Yuen badly began to controversial.Netizens question he says,She adopted children,Is ulterior motives,That is not willing to hand over the child's difficult"Can't understand".

　　然而袁厉害的家人，却早对这份执拗习以为常。多年来，袁厉害用一种特殊的坚持，行进在民间收养的道路上。

However yuen badly family,But for the difficult early accustomed to.For many years,Yuen badly with a special insist on,Travel in the folk adopted on the road.

　　今年46岁的袁厉害，从上世纪八十年代起，开始收养弃婴。

This year, 46, yuen badly,Since the 1980 s,Abandoned baby began to adopt.

　　她自己有三个亲生子女：大女儿杜娟，大儿子杜鹏，小儿子杜鸣。袁松是她早期收养的孤儿之一。和其他孩子一样，袁松从小便叫袁厉害“妈妈”。

She has three biological children:Big daughter j,The first son DuPeng,The younger son DuMing.YuanSong is her early adoption of orphans.And other children,YuanSong since childhood that yuen badly"mother".

　　袁松因先天佝偻病被亲生父母遗弃，“挂着脐带”就被扔给了袁厉害。“在我妈眼里，我跟杜鹏他们是一样的”，袁松记得，家里经济条件并不好，先后住过简易房、窝棚、铁皮房子，到他十几岁时才住上楼房。

YuanSong for congenital rickets was his natural parents abandoned,"Hung umbilical cord"Will be thrown to the yuen badly."In my mother's eyes,I told DuPeng they are the same",YuanSong remember,Home economic conditions is not good,Has lived starter home/shack/Iron house,Until he was a teenager to live in buildings.

　　袁松被这样和杜鹏、杜娟一起长大。“那时候收养的孩子没有现在多，也没那么多（病）严重的，经常能和妈妈在一起”。

YuanSong was so and DuPeng/J grows."At that time, adopt a child no more now,Also didn't so much(disease)serious,Can often and mother together".

　　念到初中时，袁松发现，家里孩子越来越多，有时候早起推开门，就能看到放在门口的小包裹。很多当地百姓把弃婴往袁厉害家送，医院有弃婴也叫她，甚至110、120也会把孩子送过来。

Read junior high school,YuanSong found,Home more and more children,Sometimes get up early pushed the door open,You can see on the small package.Many local people to the 35 yuan much home to send,The hospital has abandoned babies also call her,Even 110/120 will take the children away.

　　孩子多了，袁厉害开始给他们找单独住的地方。袁松记得，他在铁皮房里住得最久，里面除了几张上下铺外，还堆满杂物，杜鹏和杜娟经常为了争抢上铺而打架。因为衣服太脏，袁松在学校受到排挤，有些孩子不愿意跟他玩。

The children,Yuen badly began to find their place to live alone.YuanSong remember,He in the sheet metal room live the longest,In addition a few pieces of up and down outside the shop,Also pile up with sundry,DuPeng and j often in order to spread and fight for.Because the dress is too dirty,YuanSong by crowding out at school,Some children don't want to play with him.

　　有时候连老师都看不过去，时差提醒袁厉害要注意孩子卫生。这种状况一直持续到袁松学会自己洗衣服才结束，但他并不为此埋怨妈妈，“这么多孩子，哪管得过来？”

Sometimes even the teacher can not see the past,Time remind yuen much attention should be paid to children health.This situation continued to YuanSong learn to do their own washing to finish,But he is not to blame my mother,"So many children,Which tube must come?"

　　虽然钱不多，但袁厉害尽量满足养子们的请求。初中时，袁松羡慕班上条件好的孩子有“视力保护器”，戴在背上能保持坐姿挺拔。他随口说了一句，下午放学回家时，袁厉害就“变”出一个保护器，“可把我高兴坏了”。

Although not much money,But yuen badly to meet the request of the adopted child.Junior high school,YuanSong envy class condition good children"Vision protector",Put on my back to keep sitting tall and straight.He freely said 1,The afternoon came home from school,Yuen badly is"change"A protector,"I pleased bad".

　　“她总想给孩子们买好的”，多名街坊邻居也这样说。和袁厉害相邻摆摊的高女士称，袁厉害给小孩买的奶粉多是雅士利、伊利等名牌。

"She always wanted to give children a good buy",Several neighbors also say so.And yuen badly adjacent to sell high women said,Yuen badly to give children buy milk powder is the marvel/Erie famous brands such as.

　　然而，在小儿子杜鸣眼中，袁厉害实在算不上称职妈妈，甚至在长达十几年的时间里，他不愿开口喊一声“妈妈”。

however,In the younger son DuMing eyes,Yuen badly is not a good mother,Even as long as ten years time,He did not want to be open to shout a voice"mother".

　　“我挺恨她的”，1月5日，提起母亲，杜鸣仍然满脸怨气。这位24岁的年轻人从小被送回河北邢台老家，过继给大伯和婶子，和爷爷奶奶一起生活。喝羊奶长大、被同村孩子叫“野孩子”，这些创伤让杜鸣难以释怀：“她宁可要捡来的孩子，也不要我。”

"I quite hate her",On January 5,,Mention mother,DuMing still face complaints.The 24-year-old from hebei xingtai returned home,Adopt to uncle and aunt,And my grandparents live together.Drink milk to grow up/Is the child's village"Wild child",These trauma let DuMing hard:"She would rather have to pick up the child,Don't I."

　　12岁，爷爷和大伯先后去世，杜鸣回到兰考，但母子间的隔阂并没有因此而消散。除了第一次陪着去学校，袁厉害再也没有在杜鸣的学校里出现过。

12 years old,Grandpa and uncle passed away,DuMing back to LanKao,But the gap between mother and child did not lift.In addition to the first time with go to school,Yuen badly never in DuMing schools appeared.

　　“有时候看到那些孩子，我就生气，他们抢走了我妈妈。”被收养的孩子们经常在袁厉害面前打闹嬉戏，呆在旁边的杜鸣总觉得自己是局外人。

"Sometimes see the children,I was angry,They took my mother."Adopted children often in yuen badly play pillow fight before,Stay beside DuMing always feel like an outsider.

　　上初中后，他开始爱上打篮球和长跑，“自己一个人，发疯一样去跑去跳，不用想那么多事情”。但妈妈的举动仍然不时刺痛着他：第一次发工资，他精心挑选了礼物，妈妈只是收下，一句话没多说，转身就去忙。杜鸣结婚后，袁厉害第一次去他的新家，是为了说服他，让几个收养的孩子过来和小两口同住。

After junior high,He began to fall in love with playing basketball and long distance running,"alone,Like crazy to run to jump,Don't want to so many things".But mother move still sting him from time to time:The first pay,He selected a gift,Mother just take,Without a word to say,Turned to busy.DuMing after marriage,Yuen badly first to his new home,In order to persuade him,Let a few adopted children come and live with young couple.

　　亲近养子、疏远亲子，袁厉害的母爱已经超越世俗的界限，而正是这份特殊的母爱支撑着这个拥有多名收养儿童的大家庭。直到1月4日。

Close to foster son/Alienation parent-child,Yuen severe of a mother's love is beyond the limits of secular,And it is the special maternal support the name has adopted children family.Until January 4,.

　　火灾当日，袁厉害送上学的养子们归来，发现起火后，哭喊着试图冲进火场，被邻居拉住。而袁松则从火场救出了唯一一名幸存孩子。

Fire on that day,Yuen badly sent to school the adopted son back,Found after the fire,Crying trying to rushed into the fire,Be neighbor took.And YuanSong is rescued from the fire one of the only child survival.

　　随后，袁松被警方带走调查。当天晚上，事发10多个小时之后，袁松才再次见到袁厉害，“当时吓了一跳，她嘴皮整个都干裂了，看起来没血色”，他这才知道，母亲已经一天没吃没喝。

then,YuanSong away by the police investigation.That night,More than ten hours after the incident,YuanSong just to see yuen badly,"When a scare,She is the parched the form,Looks no color",He knew that,Mother has a day didn't eat not to drink.

　　“几个小孩一下全都没了”，袁厉害嘴里碎碎念叨着，使劲攥着袁松的手，“她不停发抖，就像丢了魂一样”。

"Several children it all gone",Yuen badly broken broken mouth saying,Hard YuanSong clutched the hand,"She kept shaking,As lost as soul".

　　“那一刻，我都想钻进火里面去，烧死自己。”袁厉害说道。

"At that moment,I want to go into the fire inside,To burn yourself."Yuen badly said.

　　袁厉害的是与非

Yuen badly is not and

　　袁厉害的悲伤并没有给她换来广泛的同情。事发之后，网络上，关于她的种种指责层出不穷。然而在兰考县城，袁厉害却拥有极佳的口碑。县城的居民并不觉得袁厉害做错。

Yuen much sorrow and didn't give her for a wide range of sympathy.After the,network,About her various accused emerge in endlessly.However, in the LanKao county,Yuen badly have excellent reputation.County residents don't think yuen badly done wrong.

　　“她也不是故意，也是好心。人家妈不要了，她收了。”居民们说，火灾只是一场意外。

"She didn't mean to,Is also good.The somebody else mama don't,She took the."Residents say,Fire is an accident.

　　事实上，袁厉害成名之后，她的收养行为已含有被迫的成分。

In fact,Yuen badly after fame,Her adoption behavior already contains forced component.

　　很多兰考百姓认为，把孩子送到袁厉害那里，比送给福利院和救助站更靠谱。“全县城都只知道袁厉害收小孩。”当地居民刘惠芳（化名）说。

Many people think LanKao,To send their child to yuen badly there,Than to welfare homes and rescue station more by spectrum."The whole town is only know yuen badly accept children."Local residents LiuHuiFang(alias)said.

　　一个多月前，刘惠芳在兰考县人民医院门前看见了一个弃婴。孩子看上去只有三个多月，被放在地上，哭得撕心裂肺。“这个小孩不全（有残疾）。”围观人群议论纷纷，却没有一个人去抱。人们说的最多的不是“找县救助站”，而是“给那个袁厉害打电话，叫她抱走他”。

More than a month ago,LiuHuiFang in LanKaoXian people's hospital door saw an abandoned child.The child looked only three months,Was on the ground,Cry tore heart crack lung."The child is not complete(Has a defect)."Crowd comment in succession,But no one to hold.People say the most is not"Find relief stations county",but"Give the yuen bad call,Call her walk away with his".

　　刘惠芳家就住在兰考县救助站旁，她说，救助站几乎“天天锁着，不见人，小门也没见开过”。救助站门口未张贴任何工作人员的联系方式，即便弃婴送到跟前也无法入内。

LiuHuiFang family lived in LanKaoXian rescue station side,She said,Rescue station almost"Locked every day,Disappear a person,Wicket also didn't see open".At the door of the relief stations not post any staff contact information,Even to abandon and cannot enter.

　　当地救助机构发展滞后，成为袁厉害模式得以成立的客观原因。

Local aid organization development lag,Become yuen badly model was established to the objective reasons.

　　兰考县救助站位于该县北部一偏僻所在，许多当地三轮车夫和出租车司机也不知道具体所在。

LanKaoXian rescue station is located in the north of the county in a remote place,Many local cyclo and taxi drivers do not know the specific place.

　　站长聂杰介绍，救助站有6个工作人员，救助对象主要是成人，经费多花在遣返所需的火车票上。从2011年开始，这里成为了兰考县的弃婴临时安置点。然而一位工作人员告诉记者，在一年的时间里，救助站只收到过一两个弃婴。

Webmaster NieJie introduced,Rescue station has six workers,Rescue object basically is the adult,Money spend on the train ticket back on.Starting from 2011,It became a LanKaoXian foundling temporary shelters.However a staff, told reporters,In one year's time,Rescue station only received one or two abandoned babies.

　　民众的信任和救助机构的落后，推动着袁厉害不断前行。然而，关于她的是非，争议声越来越大。

The trust of the public and rescue mechanism behind,Push yuen badly to go on.however,The right and wrong about her,Controversy over more and more big.

　　在这次出事之前，养子袁松已经不支持妈妈继续收养孩子了。有时看到她新收养孩子，他会不自觉地数落：“咋又收一个？”他觉得，妈妈现在年纪大了，又有心脏病、高血压，不适合继续带孩子。

In this before something goes wrong,Adopted son YuanSong has does not support mother continue to adopt children.Sometimes see her new adopt children,He will not consciously grumble:"Zha and accept a?"He felt,My mother is now in old age,And heart disease/hypertension,Not suitable for children to continue.

　　官方同样觉得袁厉害不适合带孩子，理由是袁家条件相对较差。兰考县民政局官员也质疑，袁厉害的收养途径是否正当。

The official also think yuen badly is not suitable for children,Reason is YuanGu conditions are relatively poor.LanKaoXian civil affairs bureau officials also questioned,Yuen smart adoption way is legitimate.

　　至于袁厉害的“舍不得”，“她是成年人，为了孩子的前途，能不能牺牲一下自己？”开封市社会福利院院长王永喜问。

As for yuen sore"Won't","She is an adult,For the child in the future,Can you sacrifice yourself?"Kaifeng social welfare institute director WangYongXi asked.

　　郑州阳光义工组织后勤部部长九福说，袁厉害“不是坏人”，但她养孩子的方式自己不敢苟同。“我们组织里很多人都对她的态度比较保留。”

Zhengzhou sunshine volunteer organization logistics department minister 9 f said,Yuen badly"Not bad",But she keep children their way beg to differ."Many people in our organization to her attitude is retained."

　　他去看过孩子位于“花园”的住处（已拆除），心情难受，“房间里太乱，太拥挤，简直就是一堆垃圾山”，他和义工还帮着清理。当地派出所做了很多次工作，袁厉害才同意送小孩读书。一次，一个三个月大的婴儿一直发高烧，袁厉害没及时送医院，最后是志愿者组织捐款送到医院的，孩子打了一个星期吊瓶。“那个孩子我估计她都要放弃了。从此，我对她都持很怀疑的态度。”九福说。

He go to see the child in"garden"place(Already removed),Mood bad,"The room is a mess,Too crowded,It is a heap of rubbish mountain",He and volunteers also help to clean up.The local police station to do a lot of work time,Yuen badly agreed to send their children to read.a,A three month old baby has a high fever,Yuen badly didn't send a hospital in time,The volunteer organization donation to the hospital,The children played a week DiaoPing."The child I guess she will give up.From now on,I told her all the very skeptical."9 f said.

　　为名所累

Name have tired

　　这些外在的非议都撼动不了袁厉害收养的决心。“她个性固执，根本不听。”公益人士九福说。

These external criticism all shake not yuen badly adopted determination."Her obstinacy,Didn't listen to."Public personage nine f said.

　　在争议声中一路前行的袁厉害，事实上已经被名气所“捆绑”。

In the controversy over all going yuen badly,In fact has been the famous"bound".

　　围绕着她的光环有很多，比如“爱心妈妈”和“兰考妈妈”，这种名气成为她的护身符。

Around her aura has a lot of,Such as"Love mother"and"LanKao mother",This kind of fame be her charms.

　　“她是名人。”兰考当地一位官员对此有些无奈。他表示，顾忌“名人光环”，是当地政府没有采取铁腕行动的原因之一。

"She is famous."LanKao a local officials some helpless.He said,scruple"Celebrity aura",Is the local government did not take iron hand one of the reasons for the action.

　　名气让越来越多的弃婴“投奔”袁妈妈，名气也让她在火灾之后成为众矢之的。

Fame makes more and more abandoned babies"to"Yuen mother,Also let her fame in fire after a target.

　　他的家人气不过，曾和记者吵。“有些人站在道德制高点去质疑别人，自己不去做好事，这是最让我们生气的。大家言论自由，但是有一个问题：假如20年前她没有捡回这个孩子，这孩子现在能在哪儿？早没了。”袁厉害的女婿郭海洋说。

His family QiBuGuo,Once and reporters noisy."Some people stand in the moral commanding heights to challenge other people,I don't go to do a good turn,This is the most let us angry.All freedom of speech,But there is a problem:If twenty years ago she didn't pick up back to the child,The child can now where is it?Early didn't."Yuen badly son-in-law GuoHaiYang said.

　　家人开始懊恼事发前的媒体曝光，他们觉得媒体的过分解读，给袁厉害巨大压力。

The family began to sweat before the media exposure,They think the media too much reading,Great pressure to yuen badly.

　　“袁厉害是个值得同情的女人。她的悲剧是所有媒体、公益机构、爱心人士铸就的。所以，这新闻，没必要追，追得越深，害她越深。”一位同情袁厉害的NGO人士说。

"Yuen badly is a compassionate woman.Her tragedy is all media/Public institutions/Love the people cast.so,The news,No need to chase,After the deeper,Hurt her more deep."A sympathy yuen severe of NGO activists say.

　　所幸，袁厉害暂时不用理会这些争吵。1月6日，她昏迷不醒被送进县人民医院。数十名记者蜂拥而至，她从楼上被推下1楼病房的全过程都被拍摄。

but,Yuen badly temporarily don't pay attention to these disputes.On January 6,,She is in a coma were sent to the county people's hospital.Dozens of journalists throng,She is pushed down from upstairs, 1 / f, the whole process of ward were shooting.

　　直到她被送进病房后，仍有记者高高地举起摄像机。甚至有记者叠起罗汉，从门上方的窗口进行拍摄。最后，房门打开，记者全部涌入，占据了大部分房间，袁家人一脸烦躁。

Until she was sent to the ward,There are still reporter lifted high camera.Even a reporter ocean builds up,From the top of the door window to shoot.finally,Door opened,Reporter in all,Occupying most of the room,YuanGuRen a face of be agitated.

　　病床上，袁厉害仍处于无意识状态，不时用舌头舔舔家人沾在她嘴唇上的水，对频繁亮起的相机闪光灯毫无反应。一名举着摄像机的年轻记者看不过去，建议同行关闭闪光灯，但这句话的效果并没有维持太久。

bed,Yuen badly is still in the unconscious state,From time to time with the tongue lick his family in her lips touched the water,For frequent lights up camera flash no reaction.A holding the camera young reporter can't see the past,Suggest flash counterparts,But this sentence effect did not last for long.

　　5分钟后，养子袁松愤怒地关掉了房灯，记者只得鱼贯而出。黑暗中，体型壮硕的袁厉害安静地躺在病床上，左手被袁松握在了手心。

Five minutes later,Adopted son YuanSong angrily turned off the room light,Journalists have to file out.The dark,Figure stout yuen badly quietly lying on the bed,The left hand is YuanSong hold in the palm.

　　一天前，她接受了新华社的专访，留下一句简单的辩白。

One day before,She accepted an interview with xinhua news agency,Leave a simple arguments.

　　“我就是想让孩子有个活命”。

"I just want to let the child have a life".